It's Been Over 3 Years And Things Are SO Different

Around the 1 year mark, I wrote a success story post. I came into this as a 26 year old virgin who has never slept with a girl.

I had successful sex for the first time around the 6 month clean mark. But orgasms messed up my sleep. They gave me headaches. They made me irritable. I had a long way to go in recovery.

Around the 1 year mark, I was dating multiple women and in the dating game for the first time since I was 19 years old. I was sleeping with all of them, which made me feel really good.

Then out of nowhere, I started having erection problems again. The sleep problems came back. I had ED and couldn't get hard for anything. Pictures, video, porn, real hot women. Nothing. I freaked out. For the next year and a half, I struggled on and off with erections.

Sometimes it was awesome. Sometimes I couldn't get hard to save my life! And this was with only ONE slip up. Which was seeing an escort in May of 2017.

Around the time I started experiencing erection problems during my reboot, I met a wonderful woman who became my wife in September of 2017! She's stuck by me through the hard times. When I was irritable and when my penis wouldn't work.

For the last 3 months, I've ramped up my orgasms through sex to push re-wiring to a new level. 4-6 orgasms in a 2 week period and then take a couple weeks off.

My erections are improving even more! My loads are huge! I'm no longer getting headaches from orgasms and the effects are minimal. Sometimes when I O too often, I run into sleep issues. But things are moving in the right direction.

This is after THREE YEARS CLEAN WITH ONLY 1 SLIP UP!

The point is this stuff takes time. Abstain for awhile. Then rewire rewire rewire. There's no healing without rewiring. We have to rewire our brains to regular sex so our pleasure systems see sex with a real live female as the reward.

Keep the faith, stay clean, and rewire!

 

I’m so calm in social situations as long as I don’t over orgasm. I’ve never been this comfortable around people. Life is good and life is fun!

I don’t think anxiety and energy levels are in a vacuum just porn related for me though.

I’ve taken nutrition seriously and completely changed my diet. More veggies and fruits. Less GMO Foods. More healthy fats like olive oil and coconut oil.

Veggie and fruit juicing. So I’m sure that’s played a factor. But if you met me now vs. 3 years ago, I’m a completely different person!

Keep the faith. Rewire rewire rewire.

I was a virgin until I was 26.

 

For me it for me it was bad to see an escort because I was engaged and in a committed relationship.

Seeing an escort requires a lot of visual imagery online and picking the exact girl you want to see, body type, race, etc.

Similar to hand selecting which porn you want to watch. It’s a huge porn like un-natural dopamine rush to the brain.

A reboot can take a long time. It’s not for the weak or faint hearted. It takes balls and guts. I’m willing to do whatever it takes to have normal penis and sexual function again.

 

That’s a great question and one I wish I had the answer for. For me, I had zero wiring to actual females. All of my “sexual experiences” were through a computer screen with porn and images.

So it’s taken my brain a long time to realize that sex is the ultimate goal with a real live female; not a computer screen.

Keep rewiring. The more rewiring the better. Even if sex and O’s send your dick back into mini flatlines. Even if that happens, you’re showing your brain the true reward and it will learn! Pathways are very plastic.

But it can take years of conditioning to reverse and “rewire” conditioning already in place.

 

Its nerv racking that rewiring is so important, at times its hard to find willing female to have sex with.. Its been my belief through porn days that its just impossible dream, not really even exist and didnt use time thinking of it.. (consensual energisizing sex). Now as last curse of porn usage i find it hard to rewire, there is no partners to do it with. I could live in selibathy but atm it seems pmo symptoms would just drag on. LOL! this is funny disease

 

@Mickeymouse are you still having sleeping issues?
If you're still struggling with sleeping issues it could be deeper than porn.

It could be your diet. It could be food allergies. It could be your adrenals. It could be your thyroid. I think sometimes we're too quick to blame EVERYTHING on porn! Even though porn can play a big role in the brain and brain chemistry.

 

@Freedom from Servitude that's a great question. In my opinion, the only benefits I see through re-wiring are sexual function related and sexual conditioning. I'm teaching my brain over and over what "sex" is and what "real sex" is with a live female.

I noticed the anxiety and energy level improvements mostly through my "re-boot" and not my sexual "re-wiring" if that makes sense.

In many cases, sex with orgasm can induce a mini set back where the anxiety will come back or my energy levels and concentration levels may fall. It's all part of the process.