Just realised it is time for me to join the 40+ section. I have not given up, even though it is always a struggle and I have relapsed badly recently. I broke up with my girlfriend and am fairly sure porn has played a big part in my emotional problems there, losing interest in my partner etc. She was wonderful and I see no reason at all why I would have problems with her, yet problems I had. But that relationship is now history and it is not the time to mope. I am trying to view this as an opportunity for renewal and rebirth. I am shifting my focus away from the motivation being to just meet women and score. I am not judging anybody with that motivation (it is a great motivation) but I realised this line of thinking has been what has always held me back, because I compare myself to guys who are more naturally ‘players’, and this demonstrates a lack of self-knowledge, acceptance and maturity on my part. So right now, I am excited by a period of celibacy. I want to write, spend more time in nature and try to see where the wind takes me. I know if I do not introduce new interests into my life, no matter how long a streak I achieve, it is only a matter of time until I relapse again. Abstaining is one thing, leaving porn behind for good is quite another. I will try to check in and diary more often. Sending love to the the community and wishing everybody a speedy recovery.