This has been an issue for me all my adult dating life. Well at least since images were able to be searched for on the internet, which would have been in my early to mid 20’s. It is certainly had been a contributor to my marriage breakdown and then the end of my long term relationship post my marriage. While there were many issues within both those relationships the impacts that porn had on me and how I showed up in my relationships was certainly a big part of where things went wrong. More recently I have started a relationship with the most amazing girl, we have been serious for over a year now but since the start of this relationship I have had constant problems with not being able to climax. Now I am ok with sometimes not being able to finish and that certainly leads to some amazing times between us but when it is almost every time then this is the point where I worry. I have been aware of YBOP for many many years and have put in some really lame attempts to change my behaviours but nothing serious because my devious brain always came up with the best excuses for not changing my behaviour even though I had a sneaky suspicion that this was ruining my life. Now I am scared it is going to destroy the best thing I have ever had in my life. My new lady is just everything that I can desire and we are having so much fun both in and out of the bedroom. And I know that if I continue on the course I am on and have always been on then this too shall destroy what I have now. I have struggled most my life with mental health issues, when I was married I was diagnosed with depression and went on the merry-go round of all the different meds they could think of, none of which helped. I had at times battled with drinking too much and often when I would get a bit drunk at home I would go on these porn benders late at night when everyone had gone to bed. All in all I have not lead a healthy path in this department and of course this a spilled over into other parts of my life too. I have never had a healthy relationship with sex, for reasons, but it is honestly my struggle with porn that is the most destructive thing in my life. I don’t seek it out all the time, I sometimes don’t seek it out every day, but I know that it is ruining my ability to be with a real woman, and if I keep just going down this path like I have all my life then this too will destroy something wonderful that I have found. So my new chapter starts today.