Hello Guys, The reason for writing of this post is that I am feeling pretty weird in last time. I experienced the most negative effects from Porn. Lost jobs. Could not graduate my Master degree in university. Sometimes I lost the connection with the real world and I lived in the virtual one. Finally I lost the love. Last year I loved a great women. We broke up because of the fact that I am completely unable to make sex. I have both opposite sex fails - Porn induced Erectile dysfunction and Porn induced premature ejaculation in same boat. I am failing only when there is a live women around me. Stimulated by pixels (Porn) I can get hard and continuously erection. After many books and articles I read I am pretty sure that the reason for those failings is Porn. Last summer I dated great girl. Beautiful and smart. We tried sex a couple of times, but it was disaster. Catastrophic, because of PIED and PIPE. We decided to broke up. I have more than 10 attempts to quit porn. All of them unsuccessful. I tried to remove it at all, but I could not. After I am aware of all negative effects and I realize that more negative effects probably are waiting for me, I decided to decrease its using. For last two months (exactly 52 days) I decided to stop edging. The edging developed to Obsessive - compulsive disorder for me. I was diagnosed by Psychiatrist friend of mine, who know about my bad habit. Since 2010 I cut the best scenes from videos, jerked off, edged for hours after hours, years after years. By this way I satisfied my sexual needs. For last two months I masturbate once, rarely twice per week. For 20 minutes I chose the preferably video. Cut preferably scene, and jerk off for 5 minutes on it. During last two months I continue downloading Porn stuff. I delete more than half of that because I find it bad somehow. Actually it became only archiving activity for me. Last 10 days I feel really weird. I look behind and I always see the following ugly picture. Fat 35 years old guy watching on screen how thousands of young people having sex, thousands of young girls acting in swimsuits or short skirts (my escalations are to non nude and jailbait stuff. I hate hardcore, group, shemales and ctr. I have zero interest to it.) jerking of, getting arousal, high and cut the best parts of those videos. I hate myself about that. I realize that most of those girls were really young. They are someone's daughters, sisters and wifes. I feel shame, guilt, sadness, anxiety and depression. I have no any suicide thoughts. I have zero libido and no motivation for anything. I have no desire even for Porn. I am full of apathy and indifference. I have no deisre to meet friends, dating new girls and meet people at all. I spent last weekends in bad reading books. Last Sunday I even did not stand up from my bad for the whole day. When I think to start jerk off and watch porn again I imagine how bad person and freak am I. I sorry for the lost time and energy durring the years spent in PMO and cutting the best scenes from videos. I have more than 70 000 cut scenes since 2010 till now. I have many beautiful things in my live. I have great family, mother and father. I have many good friends and people I can count on. I have interesting, exciting and well paid job I enjoy last two years. I have the money and opportunity to travel to many places. However it seems I am not able to appreciate all those benefits in my life. I hope I will not lose any (or all) of them soon. For the first 30 days after I stared my rebooting explained above I was practicing some outdoor activities. I started playing Tennis 3 times per week and I was on trekking every weekend in near mountains. There are many Trekking opportunities and mountains in my country Bulgaria. I felt really well by this time. I am wondering are the symptoms I listed above Flatline? How long the Flatline continues in average? Is this the first big step in my recovering? Thank you for the attention and for your answers in advance.