So I'm experiencing very strong,scary withdrawals.Im on day 12,not that it really matters what day I'm on. Extreme anxiety that no amount of breathing exercises or meditation can help,it's crippling to the point of being unable to function. Extreme intense fatigue,weirdly I have not experienced any insomnia (knock on wood).During my last long reboot way back in 2013,insomnia was by far the worse WD symptom,and last time the withdrawals were nothing compared to this. I've had other more minor symptoms,upset stomach/nausea,headaches,aches and pains,loneliness and some depression - although I think I'm just depressed about how shitty I feel. To put it bluntly I cannot function,period. Very fleeting minor urges,easily controlled though because the WD's are scaring me so much.In a weird way I think it's good that it's hit me this hard,it's nailed home just how severe my addiction was. The very bizarre thing is that it seems to come in waves.Like a bi-polar type thing.I can feel like I described,laying in bed freaking the fuck out - and a few hours later feel relatively calm and much better,and then repeat. I consider myself a fairly strong minded person,I've had some scary shit happen to me - injuries and stuff,and to be honest I have never been this scared in my life about anything. I'm very worried that I've caused some serious irreversible brain damage - another thing hit me today: That I've never read about anyone else edging or using as much as I have. I'm talking 5-10 hours of edging per day,for literally years.id say it's been this bad for about 5 years. Hermit crab lifestyle,social anxiety through the roof etc - so I say again,I've never heard of anyone death gripping and edging for on average I'd say - 6 hours a day at least for 5 or so years,I had been PMO'ing for way longer than that,however it didn't really start having life destroying effects on me until about 5 or 6 years ago. I know we're told to not compare ourselves to others,it's hard not to! Spangler a dude here,the author of 'wack addicted to Internet porn' whom I'm sure some of you would be aware of - in his book he says he was an addict at "only a few uses per week". And he had fairly severe porn induced issues,ED etc. I've told my friends and family about my addiction - to put what I'm going through in a nutshell,this is what I told my mother yesterday while going through a severe wave of symptoms: "Mum,I'm scared - I feel like a full blown junkie and I've never felt this bad EVER...I feel as if I could faint,and start convulsing on the ground". Then I came into my room and starting crying like a child. This is hard for me to say,I'm not a pussy - this is worse than coming down from MDMA,it's just so weird! I now know what heroin addicts mean by 'the sickness'.I don't actually have your typical porn urges - i just want this sickness to go away,that's the only way I could see myself relapsing at this stage but I won't. So has ANYONE experienced anything as intense as this? Particularly the waves of bad/good? It's fucking bullshit man,I can't believe It,honestly I feel like I'm losing my mind. Also,this took a good 5 days or so to start kicking in - so I'm 99.9% sure it is porn withdrawals,however it's hard sometimes to accept because it is so hardcore. Another thing to add - I had a cold/virus thing about 3 weeks ago,but I'm over it now.And 2 weeks before I started this run,I quit weed.I was smoking heavily for around 2 months and PMO'ing - by heavily I mean I was high every waking minute. So maybe the combination of the quitting weed and PMO in close succession could have shocked my brain or something? Would really appreciate any kind of feedback on this one guys!!!! Aussie. EDIT: What I'm really scared of is that with some other addictions,alcoholics,benzodiazepines and I think heroin - it can be VERY dangerous to quit cold turkey,without medications. Im actually scared I could fucking die from this! From my brain just going into dopaminergic shock or some weird ass fuckin shit bra. know that must sound weird,but fuck,man. I even considered going to the doctors - however that scares me having to go out and face people feeling like this - fucking hell this SUCKS x1000000.