Hello everyone, i have meant to do this for a couple of years now. Never felt it was truly necessary as i thought i could beat this by myself. After 9 months of no PMO i finally crashed last night. Had an all night PMO session and today I felt i have no other option but to change strategy, accept this is stronger than me and seek support of this community. I am a 41 y/o male. Have been addicted to porn since my early 20s. Last couple of years i have become increasingly aware of my addiction but have never truly come face to face with reality. I seem to obstain 6-8 months without porn but indulge (or trick myself i should say) in pictures of backpages bdsm, eROS bdsm pages and Transvestites. I am a heterosexual male but increasingly have been developing a taste for homosexual porn, more the humilliation factor than homosexual attraction. And my tastes have always been kinky. I have boundaries thank but am attracted to pretty dirty fetishes which frighten me. For me now, my biggest fear is that i give up and accept this addiction. I dont want to give up trying although i am heavily confused, dissapointed and upset with myself. Keep thinking why keep falling off the wagon. I accept i must now do strictly no PMO. So no more looking at prostitutes and youtube sites kidding myself its not real porn as i am just pushing into the invevitable. I am married to a wonderful wife, who does not know about this, and have just had our first child. I do not want my child to have a pathetic porn addicted father. So with this i start my journey. Today start the counter and would very much like your support through this.