In the midst of chaos, there is also opportunity

There's no legitimate reason, whether it's an "adult" chat room or a "normal" chat room. Maybe some people can use them legitimately but I can't.

Yeah that can be an issue. I feel kind of "cured" of the addiction sometimes and then I let my guard down.

 

Maybe you mean, am I using chat rooms partly just to "connect" with people and things like that? There is a bit of that, but they're terrible places to do so.

Anything else remotely positive can be used as a substitute. I just need to avoid live, online chat.

 

I've been keeping a journal on another forum the past few days. Although I use this forum and the other one every day, I've been neglecting my journal writing somewhat so I'm trying to get back to writing a little every day.

At the moment, the other forum is "currently disabled", so I'll write here. About time I updated this journal anyway.

Day Four

Four days ago I logged into a chat room and I also looked at P-subs. I've been clean since and I intend to stay that way!

Today was all right. I wasn't overly tempted. I've been getting more thoughts of P than usual, and this is almost certainly a result of looking at P-subs recently.

Chat, P-subs and P: I've got to avoid all three. If I do one I get cravings for the others.

Right, I feel like getting off the computer now, which is probably a good idea!

 

Translation (may need perfecting):

Men

Men take you in their arms
Men give comfort
Men cry secretly
Men need a lot of tenderness and
Men are so vulnerable
Men are just irreplaceable in this world

Men buy wives
Men are always on the run
Men flirt like crazy
Men lie on the telephone
Men are ready all the time
Men captivate with their money and nonchalance

Men have a hard life, but take it easy
Hard on the outside, soft on the inside
Even as children they are already being turned into men
When is a man a man?

When is a man a man?

Men have muscles
Men are so strong
Men can do everything
Men get a heart attack and
Men are lonely fighters
Have to go through every wall, always have to keep going

Men have a hard life, but take it easy
Hard on the outside, soft on the inside
Even as children they are already being turned into men
When is a man a man?

Men wage wars
Men are already drunk when they are babies
Men smoke pipes
Men are extremely clever
Men build rockets
Men do everything as precisely as they can

When is a man a man?

Men bear no children
Men get thinning hair
Men are human beings too
Men are a bit strange and
Men are so vulnerable
Men are just irreplaceable in this world

 

Hail to the King, baby...