Day 3 I think that I should forget about counting days and focus on not having binges anymore. I think that the length of the binges I have had during this relapse invalidates all the effort I have put to stay sober 60+ days. Hypothetically if I were to PMO once per week and say it was a 1 hour session - I think this would be less bad then to go clean for 90 days then binge for 10 days then go glean for 90 days then binge for 10 days, and so on. Such extreme variations between complete abstinence and then binges must truly be bad for the body. Not to speak how bad I feel when this happens. It's indescribable how it brings me to a depression that is beyond words. @Living and @Throwaway Handle - Thank you guys. Living I'll try to reply a bit to what you wrote in my next post (but right now I need to head out a bit).