@Pete McVries - Yeah Pete, you nailed it in so many ways. The situation is bothering me and I have been having difficulty in picking one way or another, doing something or letting it go and forgetting about it. Being in that middle, I started fantasizing a lot, as a way to keep the hope up or distract myself from the difficulty of not taking action yet not being able to let it go by either. If I could make a decision, that would be ideal in many ways. I'm more aware of the fantasies though, and to the very least I'll try to not stay in them, when I catch myself at it. Yeah the PUA was because of the situation as well. Probably hoping to push myself once again, or to divert my attention, just like the fantasies. The problem with PUA is that it tells people they are not okay as they are. Maybe someone who has no fear of rejection and wants to fine tune "his game" can check out some PUA to see why he is not getting results when he tried and tried and it hasn't worked. But someone who simply has a great fear of rejection, should probably not read PUA - and instead simply find a way to get out of his comfort zone (at his level) as he feels is natural to him (even if that violates all the "PUA wisdom"). I saw a video the other day of a PUA coach who was coaching 2 "newbies" "in field" as they say. He was teaching them how to be "fun" and "not so serious". It really bothered me to see how those guys were forcing themselves to be someone they are not (mimicking the coach). I thank you for your advice and perspective, good sir. @Shady - Thanks man ! I'm glad to be at 49 days completed (in a few hours). That's 27.2 % of 180 days (6 months). So I'm doing good but it's essential I keep going. You're doing really well too man ! @-Luke- I have done some Yoga in the past and maybe I'm gonna see if I can try out some more. I'm sure I can find something on YT. I'll have to be careful not to get triggered by a nice looking teacher. I like how you point out that doing a little can give us that sense of accomplishment. I guess that sense of achievement, daily, will help us stay on the good path. We don't always have to go at 300% to get some of it. Maybe finding the right level every day. Sometimes it can be a walk. Other times working out more, etc. But it does seem important to have some of it. To kick up the good positive feeling. @NewStart19 - Hey man great to see you around again ! I was thinking about you lately and was wondering if you will show up again. I hope you're doing all right and would love to hear how you are. Thanks a lot for your support and dropping by ! Right now I'm doing okay but I had a bit of a rough patch in the winter months. Had some bad relapses in January as well. Take care dude. @Gil79 - Thanks so much man. Yeah, there is a feeling that I'm on the good path despite confusion and challenging emotions. It's not like that confusion when I'm in the pit of relapses.