Okay so this is my first post. I'm 20 years old I started to PMO since I was around 12 or 13. Every single day I thought It was normal. And some days I have done it 3 or 4 times in a day. In the last two years I had started to watch more heavy porn to get a boner. I was a virgin until last year when I decided to use grindr, in order to feel something different, I didn't work in the way I wanted. I barely have sensitivity and cant get a firm boner. I got worse, and kinda got addicted to hookups. I think after grindr, I had worse boners, I messed up my self-esteem a lot. I feel so depressed, frustrated when I tried to hookups with guys in the last year, even I felt horny with the guy I couldn't get a boner and couldn't finish. I don't wake up with morning wood since a long time, instead I woke up and directly MO before get up. This had make me be late to anywhere I need to go because first I felt the urge to MO and watch porn for more than a hour. I have spent 1 or 2 hours per day whatchin porn, edging was normal to me But I'm tired, I had fell in love with someone and I want to make him feel satisfied with me, I want to make him feel how much I love him. So I decided to stop MO now. I'm tired of myself I can't do anything. I had tried a lot of times stop this addcition but now im decided to overcome this. I can do it, i believe in me. Everytime I have tried I fail. But I'm still think I can do it. My maximum had been 4 days without PMO, BUT now imma start this journal, because I had read over here that it helps a lot, so I'm trying this now.