I'm Mantas and I am an addict

Discussion in 'Ages 20-24' started by Mantasx1, Dec 23, 2018.

  1. Mantasx1

    Mantasx1 New Member

    Hey, everyone. I'm new. My name is in the title and I'm a porn addict.
    I've been trying to quit for over a year now, highest I got was 54 days, yet my weak mind took the better of me.
    So here I am, one year later and nothing has changed. I am mad, frustrated, sad with and at myself, because I can't cure myself of this habit. I need help to quit watching pornography and masturbating to it.
    I also want to quit using porn substitutes like snapchat and/or tinder.
    I get mostly triggered at the evenings when I have nothing to do or should be doing something else, being alone is also a huge trigger.
    I want to change and be a better version of myself.

    My reboot began at 9:00 PM. I am going to update this journal every day around the same time to let you know about my journey and what thoughts I had about porn or anything that has to do with it.
     
  2. Mantasx1

    Mantasx1 New Member

    Day 1 is in the books (or in this case, the journal).
    I did download snapchat and tinder again. Snapchat is deleted at the moment, didn't delete tinder again for now. Other than that, I didn't have any sex thoughts (though I probably will now since it's like when you're told to not think of an elephant). Went to the gym today, did squats and deadlifts today, didn't continue because I felt a lack of energy as well as a feeling that I was gonna throw up anytime soon. But I didn't.
     
  3. Mantasx1

    Mantasx1 New Member

    Day 2. Deleted snapchat and tinder again after not gaining anything. Had a calm christmas day. Made me feel bad about myself that I am addicted to PMO, other people seem to have better things to do. Tomorrow I was invited to this girls house for a sort of party. Don’t know if I will go there. The me on day 54 of nofap would go. Don’t know yet if the current me will go.
     
  4. John Powell

    John Powell New Member

    Keep going! Freedom from pornograhy is achievable. Preservere on
     

Share This Page