29 years old, and 28 days in. This is just frightening. I know it's part of the process, I know it's to be expected. But I just feel like I'm in such a dark and unrecoverable spot. I'm not a depressive type, but this is certainly a trip. I know that this is going to take me months and months to come out of, and what absolutely blows my mind is just how sudden I started developing severe PIED symptoms. I have no desire of any kind of sexual release whatsoever. I see women that are attractive, and I have slight flashes of what *should* be sexual appetite, but they're fleeting. And the worst part is I've been hanging with a new girl the past few months, and we simply can't have sex despite several attempts. She knows whats up. I told her. And she's understanding about it, for now. Who knows what'll happen. But I don't wish this on anybody. It's utterly fascinating and also utterly maddening.