Hi guys, 31 year old here. Masturbating to pornography since 13. I've been aware of its negative affects since I was about 20. Been aware of the 're-balancing' theory since I was about 24, but I have never been able to tame myself. So far anyway. Journalling has helped me with other things. It's helped me in the gym. It's helped me with alcohol. I know it can help me with pornography addiction. I'm starting to get desperate though. I'm probably at the lowest point I've ever been in my life. I'm employed, I have money, I'm in decent shape ... but my personality is in the absolute pits. I'm anxious around people. I have no self confidence or assurance. And I am genuinely most content being alone, in my room, with a bottle of brandy and the internet - browsing forums and using porn. How can I ever have friends or a girlfriend again if I just don't want to be around people? What kind of life is going home, going into my room, shutting my door ... day, after day, after day ... And the longer it goes on, the worse my social skills get ... and the more I want to isolate myself. It will get to the point where I can no longer function in society. I KNOW giving up porn can help. Whenever I travel, and have no internet/pornography, suddenly I enjoy people. I want to be around them (even if I still need time to recharge afterwards). I can imagine myself in a relationship. It helps. This works. Just got to be committed. Encouragement much appreciated. Day 1.