Hi. Im 31 year old now, since im 12 year im starting masturbate, then age 15, picture masturbe, then 16 when im first see porn, im so excited. Then im hook with it there was vhs, then vcd and then dvd, now im on internet. My life so introvert, im alone, and have a gf when im 23 y/o, but not have a succesful sex like i watch in porn. When i think its very pleasure when im jacking on porn, than sex with my gf, so i break him up coz im not happy with her when were together. Our relationship was only one month, and since then i had no gf at all and im am 31 year old now and still single. Im thinking what the matter with me, im not gay. I love woman. But speaking of woman. I like to be it perfect. Maybe porn teach that, when i read ybop its, say always beautiful, always sexy, always hot, not smelly, i see it in porn. In real, you see its not perfect, skin not flawless, and smell not always good. And sometimes its hard to get, getting in the mood. You wanted that way it not happen. Porn can it happen, it never be angry with you. But thanks to the internet, i found this www.ismasturbationbad.com/home.htm its explain, it try not to masturbate the watch porn, no masturbate. Its hard, even im not touching my penis, i can ejaculate, even its not hard an limp, i ejacute, then thanks to internet, i search if bad the porn, then im saw this ybop, im amazed. Its explain everything, and what happen that i cannot have a pleasure in real sex, im much prefer porn. Always im my mind im thingking sex sex sex. Thats thinking im a maniac, but im hook in it. Thats discovery was march 2011, and 1 year has gone now. Ill try it but, you know its very hard to do it, 1 year had past and im still trying not even succed. Im succeed only 45 days, and then back again on porn. It hard, 2 week, then relapse, watch porn again. Ill never succeed. Ill find it when youre mind says watch porn, the wholeday its in your mind. Then your like a robot, download porn, if youre not ejaculate you do not stop, download again. When you ejaculate, oh noh, back to zero day again. Its hard. One thing i noticed, when a slight trigger you, you keep coming to the near and nearer porn. Just when something i see, a beautiful actress, then came to think, search her in internet wearing bikini, then youre not satisfied, you search her nude, and so on. Been doing it. So now im 2nd day only of no pmo, itry the internet porn software blocker and its not help me. Im thingking its your own will i can do it. So today, i will post what happen in this, even if i relapse or never succed in this journey, ill try again. So i join thin forum. Maybe it will help for me. May target is 60 day of no porn. Then im success reboot. Target: i want to expirence the pleasure of real sex. Since im expierence real sex but not the pleasure of it, it performance.