I want a better life at age 36. It´s NOT too late!

Discussion in 'Ages 30-39' started by MarstonS, Jan 19, 2013.

  1. Intothewild89

    Intothewild89 Active Member

    Hope you find that works for you bro. Getting better sleep will help you as well. We're both at 7 days today. First one to relapse buys the other a case of pop. :D
     
  2. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap Day: 8
    10 pm-Internet shutdown: Day 2
    Alcohol Day: 63

    Ok so I shut down the internet connection in my house, yesterday at 10 pm. Went to bed and tok a book and started to read. Man, It must have been many years since I last read a book....I have always just been reading from a screen the last 4-5 years. After that I fell asleep and slept for a long time.

    Intothewild89, haha, first I thought you should say: "first one to relapse buys the other a case of porn" ;)


    Today I'm grateful for:
    -Coffee in moderation
    -My warm and cosy house
    -My sister and my brother
     
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  3. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap Day: 12
    10 pm-Internet shutdown: Day 6
    Alcohol Day: 67

    Nothing to report really. Well, confidence has been much higher than it used to be, the last 7 days....
     
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  4. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap Day: 14
    10 pm-Internet shutdown: Day 8
    Alcohol Day: 69

    Stay strong Marston!
     
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  5. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap Day: 16
    10 pm-Internet shutdown: 1
    Alcohol Day: 71

    Coldest day so far this year, in my country. -30 celsius which is -22 farenheith
     
  6. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap Day: 17
    10 pm-Internet shutdown: 1
    Alcohol Day: 72
     
  7. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap Day: 1
    Alcohol Day: 1

    Well that was totally not worth it. What a disappointing weekend. I had 4 drinks and that was all it took to undermine my willpower and I relapsed later that evening because my brain wanted more dopamine. The ironic part was that the alcohol did not deliver any good feelings. It used to, in the past, and that's why my brain still want me to try every now and again but nope. It does not work anymore.

    I'm back up on the horse and I will try to not let this get me down...

    Today I'm grateful for
    -Clean clothes
    -The computer I got from my sister
    -My sister and my closest family
     
  8. Doper

    Doper New Member

    Well, I find making it 20 days I get a good bit of progress, not a bad run. In fact if I could continuously do 20 days over and over with JUST ONE minor infraction/no bingeing, I would be reasonably happy with that, though of course it's a given to shoot for better. I also concur that if you don't drink for a while and end up doing so, it doesn't feel all that great. Going 70+ days without drinking is definitely something to be proud of.
     
  9. dark red drifter vessel

    dark red drifter vessel Active Member

    Mh, regarding the alcohol I feel that us lot has to find new and saner ways of having fun®.

    Bit of a conundrum, cause when you're fighting back so many things it can get tricky to build something new. So many ressources bound up with Not Doing Bad Things.

    Still, these days I think building new, good things in our life is the best shot we might have at freeing ourselves. Huh.
     
  10. Gilgamesh

    Gilgamesh Seize the day

    Hey MarstonS, I have not been here for a couple of weeks and notice that you haven't posted either. Hope your doing fine.
     
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  11. TheScriabin

    TheScriabin Active Member

    Likewise, hope all is good with you Marston?
     
  12. dark red drifter vessel

    dark red drifter vessel Active Member

    Marston, I'll join the bloody choir if need be.

    Whats up? Where you at?
     
  13. Pete McVries

    Pete McVries Active Member

    Yeah, I was wondering the same. Where is the old Finnish war horse at?
     
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  14. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Hi guys, thanks for commenting.

    In order to get new perspectives I took a long break from internet and this forum. I'm ok...the old Finnish war horse is still here :)

    I lost count on my alcohol days, but I descided to not drink anymore for the rest of the year 2019, at least. Haven't had a drink since I wrote about it last, in January.

    When it comes to the PMO reboot I'm still struggling with relapses about once or twice every 2 weeks. Today is day 7 of no pmo.

    I feel better with less internet so I will probably update less frequently, just so you know, I'm still okay here :)
     
  15. Pete McVries

    Pete McVries Active Member

    Glad, that you are still alive and kicking. Sometimes rebooters disappear forever without them explaining (still don't know what happened to Wabi-sabi :( ). And given that the suicide rates in Finnland are pretty high, especially during the winter, I had thought of the worst. I'm excited to see what you can achieve this year. It's time to finally get rid of this shit.

    All the best, brother!
     
  16. dark red drifter vessel

    dark red drifter vessel Active Member

    Not hanging on the net is probably a really good idea. Good to hear you're alive and kicking!
     
  17. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap day 14
    No alcohol Day: I'm not sure, 49 or 50...something

    Thanks for commenting guys, I love you all!


    Ok, it's Saturday here in Marston land. 90% of my relapses happens on the weekedns so I'm aware of the higher risk today....

    ...that said, if I zoom out and look at the big picture I'm doing SO much better today then when I started this journey. The thing I did wrong in the beginning was, focusing only on NOT doing PMO...and that was it. Today I have a different aproach. Today I have a life vison, with goals, that I'm working on and rebooting is just one of the tools I use to achieve that goal. (The biggest goal is to grow my side busniess so big that I can quit my day-job)
     
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  18. dark red drifter vessel

    dark red drifter vessel Active Member

    Likewise, man. And I feel you on that different approach thing. When I started out I had that abstract idea of "Okay, in a few months I'll have this fixed and can go back to normal". Ya, I actually was that daft. Good thing we all get to learn.

    Is that side biz music related or do you breed organic elks, if I may inquire? :D
     
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  19. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Yeah, we live and learn...but then we also sometimes forget what we have learned...and then we have to learn it again :p

    It's indeed music related my brother :) Wait a minute, the organic elks would perhaps be an idea...at least I don't think I would have much competition here in my area :cool:
     

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