I want a better life at age 36. It´s NOT too late!

Discussion in 'Ages 30-39' started by MarstonS, Jan 19, 2013.

  1. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap Day: 7
    Alcohol Day: 49
    Keto: 3

    I made it, even though my brain was like in a fog.

    Today I'm grateful for
    -being alive
    -it's warm outside
    -My brother

    reboot and dominate, never forget!
     
    Last edited: Dec 31, 2018
  2. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap Day: 8
    Alcohol Day: 50
    Keto: 4

    Woke up with a morning wood for the first time in ages


    Today I'm grateful for
    -8 days clean
    -Far cry 3
    -My trumpet website
     
  3. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap Day: 9
    Alcohol Day: 51
    Keto: 5
    Coffee: 1

    Ok, 2019...let's see what the year brings! My body is in a constant state of stress, even when my mind is calm. This is why I will try going for a period without coffee. Just a bit worried that I deprive myself of too many things in life. Porn and alcohol, sure, I don't need that crap. But then the sugar and carbs also goes away on the keto diet...I could live with that. The coffee though, may be pushing it. But there is no harm in trying at least.

    Today I'm grateful for:
    -I slept well
    -A steady income (job starts again tomorrow)
    -Having had less panic attacks since I went keto
     
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  4. Intothewild89

    Intothewild89 Active Member

    Hey Marston. How much were you drinking a day? I’m going no pmo/no alcohol/no caffeine for at least a few months as my New Years resolution. I’ve quit coffee for 7 straight months back in late 16 - early 17 and it took about 4 months until I got my energy back. I’ll tell you what though, before that I was a 3 drink a day user for almost 8 years. When I came back to coffee 7 months later, a sinus problem I’d been having for nearly all year resolved in 5 minutes after taking that first drink. I don’t think your body ever truly gets back to normal after being on coffee for so long, at least in that time span. I’m thinking it might take years to truly undo the brain changes done by caffeine. Should give us some perspective on how long the pmo journey will take us. Good luck brother, just remember feeling lethargic is always 100% better than feeling stressed with anxiety. It is for me at least.
     
  5. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap Day: 10
    Alcohol Day: 52
    Keto: 6
    Coffee: (limited use)

    First day after the christma vacation, back in work. Felt confident and everything went well.

    Intothewild89, thanks for commenting...sounds pretty wild with the timeframe there. I drink about 3-5 cups every day and I'm thinking I probably should taper off instead of going cold turky. Still unsure about the whole quitting though. If I start seeing the keto diet give big benefits for my anxiety I will rething the whole quitting but, as for now, I'm tapering....
     
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  6. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap Day: 11
    Alcohol Day: 53
    Keto: 7
    Coffee: (limited use in progress)

    I made a mistake in my workplace today, so I'm guessing the boss might be a bit upset with me. Things like that happen...I think I managed the situation pretty well thouhg, under the circumstances.
     
  7. Gilgamesh

    Gilgamesh Seize the day

    Indeed, things like that happen. Making mistakes is part of being a human being and makes us grow.
     
  8. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap Day: 12
    Alcohol Day: 54
    Keto: 8

    Confidence increases slowly but surely. Me like!

    Gilgamesh, that is very true, brother.
     
  9. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    some kind of error omn this forum...can't seem to edit...
     
    Last edited: Jan 5, 2019
  10. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap Day: 1
    Alcohol Day: 55
    Keto: 9

    It was the sleep deprivation that got the better of me. I'm dissapointed at myself but I have to try to look in bigger perspectives. I'm doing better and better and, as a whole, I'm still progressing. Working on my online business and staying free from alcohol, learning and growing.

    The last 12 days showed me something important and interesting though: I'm much better at resisting urges when I have a no sugar/no carb diet. It's not just a minor difference but a big one. I had many urges this last streak that I managed to not respond to and I have also noticed hog much increased my mental clarity and slef control is with other things in life, when Iäm on a no carb diet. Yesterday, however, it wasn't enough beacause lat night internet use in combination with no sleep the night before is still too dangerous, regardless of what I'm doing diet wise.
     
  11. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

  12. Gilgamesh

    Gilgamesh Seize the day

    Sleep deprivation is one of the biggest challenges for me too. It lowers boundaries and gives you an aweful lot of time to pass. All in all I think you're going strong though. You don't seem to fall back to binging and long absence from journalling, meaning that your moving towards your goals.
     
  13. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap Day: 1
    Alcohol Day: 56
    Keto: 10

    Gilgamesh, thanks, yes I think I'm growing. Now I want to try a better and hopfully much longer streak. I need to figure out a way to limit my internet use late at nights though.
     
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  14. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap Day: 2
    Alcohol Day: 57
    Keto: 11

    One day at a time...
     
  15. Intothewild89

    Intothewild89 Active Member

    This is a huge one for me too. Boredom is the devil. I wish all my devices would automatically turn off at 10pm and stay off until 7am. Would do a whole lot for me and my recovery.
     
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  16. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap Day: 3
    Alcohol Day: 58
    Keto: 12

    Intothewild89, drifting mindlessly on the internet late at night is dangerous and is what has led me to most relapses of during my rebooting years. I tried to have for example no internet for after 8pm rules and stuff like that but I always end up going back to using the net aventually. Indeed I would like such devices that you mentioned!
     
  17. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap Day: 4
    Alcohol Day: 59
    Keto: 1

    Almost 60 days no alcohol again...time flies when you are not focusing on it.
     
  18. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap Day: 5
    Alcohol Day: 60
    Keto: 2
     
  19. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap Day: 6
    Alcohol Day: 61
    Keto: 1

    Came very close to relapsing yesterday when working late at night again. I managed to tear me away from the screen but still....I need to figure out a way to make my house internet free late at night
     
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  20. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap Day: 7
    10 pm-Internet shutdown: Day 1
    Alcohol Day: 62


    This is just not working for me. I did not relapse yesterday but, again, I came SO very close to it. I need to cut out internet at nights. Starting today.
     

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