Status update As far as NoA, yesterday I watched a movie with a lot of sexuality in it, though no nudity or sex scenes. Not sure I should have done that, in fact because of NoA I'm pretty sure I shouldn't have done that. Today I laid down for a while and at first I was thinking about constructive things but soon I was having sexual fantasies. I tried several times to stop, and I even FMed a bit. I think when I try to stop thinking about sex I think about sex more. I think I am afraid that if I stop thinking about sex I will lose my sexuality and sex drive, and I will lose all my efforts and progress at sexual purity and to end my sexual corruption. This is probably false, but I'm not sure, so I can't give up yet. I did have the idea of asking my brother to ask me why I wasn't married every few weeks and see if I can be motivated to get married that way. I also think that maybe the main reason I don't have a girlfriend or am not married is because I have low self-esteem and I don't think I'm worth much for a girl. And that's my overly honest share for today.