Status I tried to meditate this morning but I guess I failed I just couldn't concentrate on it. But I think it still helped me put off internet addiction a little while. Maybe I will only be able to meditate every 2-3 days, but every little bit helps. No acting out but I did look at scantily clad women on my TV. Apparently there's apps for that. One app was $1.98 and I seriously considered getting it. It would have been the first time I paid for something pornish or sexual. I guess I'm over the temptation to buy it now, but I think I am not over the temptation to look for or install apps like that on my TV. I am having small temptations to masturbate. I turn them down, but I wonder if I'll be able to keep doing that at this rate. I lack a real plan and real motivation. I watched the first episode of Queen's Gambit and maybe I should pick up chess (and knitting) to make my mind do hard work to encourage rewiring. I am thinking I should buy myself pop to reward myself. I like different flavours of pop (soda). I'm not getting rid of stuff from my apartment because it might be infected, so there goes my plan of getting rid of stuff. I still hope to get furniture though. A strange post, but I though I should post an update and confess about the bikini girl apps. Edit: I almost masturbated but I turned it down and put away my cloth. I'm not sure what my motivation was to do that, but I guess it was partially having to reset my counter and a general feeling that FMO wasn't a constructive time.