Status Two FMOs since last. The fantasies are definitely inspired by written porn and sometimes by visual porn. So, I'm not going to recover at this rate. I know I'm not making a lot of progress. I guess I'm hoping I'll come across some good ideas soon, and I haven't really tried anything. Also I'm not as motivate to quit FMO because it doesn't make me humiliated when talking to attractive women and it doesn't put my in crisis every time the PMO ends. I guess I don't have much motivation or a lot of a plan. NoA I think that going to sex addiction meetings and reading about sex addiction is arousing me. I'm not sure though. I get temptations to FMO whether or not I'm going to meetings or reading posts on the WWW. Otherwise, I've been doing NoA except when I fantasise sexually. I am so filled with or saturated with sexual thoughts and desires that I think I can't stop FMOing as it is, or even be at peace or calm when it comes to dealing with other people. Rat Park Rat park is my attempt to make my apartment a pain-free dwelling home with lots of good and creative things to do. This is to keep me from PMO or FMOing. I think I am about halfway to making a good rat park for myself. Here are some things I have done: I have two computers (I like computers a lot) I have a TV with a VCR and a DVD player I have Netflix and another streaming service I have four video game consoles, all somewhat old (I don't play them that often) I have nice carpets for two of my areas in my apartment Here's some things I need to do to get rat park going in my apartment: Make it easier to go to parks regularly for fun Remove a lot of old computer parts Clear stuff I don't need out of my bedroom Get dining room chairs Get on better terms with neighbours so I'm not afraid to go out of my apartment Get a couch/futon, a desk, and a bed To-do I don't really know. Maybe I should ease off reading about sex addiction and also not go to meetings much for a while. One final note, I'm half done eating my cake and I think it was a good idea to reward myself for 150 days clean.