Status No porn since last, 1 FMO. I still feel a lot better since confessing the non-consensual sexual thing with my girlfriend affected me. The temptation to FMO is a lot lower. NMMNG! book I wrote down three men to use as role models, and I told one about this whole thing. He said to go to multiple men for role modelling, otherwise you'll get messed up. So I guess I'll use all three. NoA(rousal) I am still embarrassed that I haven't been thinking about this as much as I should have. I think the key to my recovery is not "never look at porn" but "never get aroused except by a real woman you might be in a sexual relationship with". I'll have to be careful where I put my eyes on certain music videos, or I can leave the room entirely. For the future I still need to get counselling, but at least NMMNG! and confessing sexual things have helped me a lot lately.