I have been trying to listen and empathize more. I know I have a tendency to want to "fix" things for people. I'm impressed by your courage to go onto medication and your future plans. Though, I feel compelled to share that you may find a psychologist or therapist for free if money is a barrier. Mental health has less stigma around it and is more in the open these days. So some cities have free walk-in clinics. I know that the one in my town offers someone to talk to 2-3 times and then if you need more, they ask for a donation to keep the service free for everyone. I guess I wanted to share that because money has been an issue for me lately and I've been using the lack of it as an excuse to punish myself. Not that I assume that is what you're doing. I'm just noticing those thoughts and feelings as I respond here.