Well I've messed it up now. I slowly started relapsing a few days ago, with masturbation to fantasy, and looking up girls in swimsuits and other non-porn sexy material. Eventually I got into softcore porn and then hardcore porn and I am relapsed as of today. I saw it coming, but I wish I had a better plan. I think I need to get out more, have my apartment more organised with a TV and more things to do in here, have more than one computer, and have Internet porn filtering on my computers. Also if I had more friends, had a job, visited my family more. I missed out on my chance to join a baseball league, darn it. It may also help if I tell my closest friends (or family?) about my struggle with internet porn and then maybe I could get some accountability and some good tips on how to recover. I didn't think this rebooting method was going to last. It seemed pretty easy for a while, but I knew somewhere that my chances were most likely just as bad as usual. Actually, I still think my old motivation was pretty good (talking to a young woman I know, and also her whole family is probably against porn) and it may help me be sober for another couple of weeks. Every little bit helps. I watched a video on YBOP about a rebooter who stayed porn-free for 250 days after reading Marnia Robinson's book Cupid's Poisoned Arrow today. He says that after he read that book he was able to stay fap-free for 250 days because of the explanations of emotional intimacy and neuropsychology in the book. I was hoping the young woman's family would help keep me pure in much the same way. I should probably buy that book, and Gary Wilson's Your Brain On Porn book. I'm, after all, desperate, or at least I should be. Done for now.