I discovered Your Brain On Porn on June 2nd of this year (2012). At that time I was 32 years old. I am now 34 years old. (I started this journal when I was 33.) I am male. I have been trying to quit pornography since I was 17 years old. This is my first Web forum, so if I seem rude or dumb it's not on purpose. I also have extreme difficulty socialising, so if I look uncaring or arrogant it's not intentional. I don't want to tell much of my story yet, partially because it's hard to think about. It's rather traumatic. I'm glad I joined the forum and have been rewarded many times for posting. I looked up Internet porn on dial-up Internet when I was 16 years old I think. This was in my parents' house on my dad's computer, in the family rec. room. I don't know how long it was between getting Internet access and me using it to look up pornography, but it was probably less than three months. It felt like a long time to me, though. At first it was just softcore pornography I guess, but I think I got addicted right away. The new hope I have because of Your Brain On Porn is that my brain can be rebooted and that addiction to Internet porn is not the same thing as sexual addiction (so there's a new way to treat it). I think everything Your Brain On Porn and Gary Wilson says is true and helpful. This section of this post is not the best, I'm trying to describe my first reboot attempt: So despite not really designing to reboot I think I was partially committed to it anyway and I tried not to go with the rebooting anyway, say from June 2nd to the end of August, about 90 days. Again, this was not an official goal, and still isn't, but I'll tell you what's happened. I had relapsed (not really a real relapse I think) about four or five times that month, June, and I think twice in July and two very minor ones in August so far. I still want to reboot but don't think I really want to or can. End section. Also I was thinking that since I had addiction to Internet porn so long I needed at least a 90 day reboot, probably a 90 to 120 day reboot. So that's what I tried at first. At certain points of turning down pornography and replacing it with other activities in June and July I think that I could really actually feel the neurons in my brain rewiring, and the white matter sinking out of my forebrain and leaving and going back into the midbrain or wherever it is that they belong. I think that I could feel some self-control and my will power being restored. A couple days ago I took a stab at running and it was extremely revealing and I probably ought to make an article about that and how I'm having difficulty about running, which I think is one of the first things I think I should do to replace pornography in my life with other habits.