I know this is going to be having sarcastic responses but I finally believe....

Discussion in 'Pornography Addiction' started by germanshepherd07, May 31, 2013.

  1. germanshepherd07

    germanshepherd07 New Member

    porn addiction is real and only you can stop it. I realize I will eventually lose my job if this ever comes out or the bank finally asks me about these charges I frequently make. I don't want to lose my dream job(I work with MWDs and not many people get to do that)and I'm tired of being depressed. I do suffer from OCD but I believe that porn escalates my mood swings. I hope I have made the right choice and that live cam women needs to get out of my life along with porn.

    I'm turning 25 in 77 days and I do not want to spend the rest of my life shelling out money to girls that are not even emotionally invested since it's just for play or becoming an embarrassment of myself if anyone ever inquires why I'm broke all the time. My mother has asked a couple of weeks ago why are you broke? I came up with the lame excuse of gas prices(I drive like 200 miles per week lol).


    I'm sorry I have made this multiple times before but you only have one shot at life. I can lose that shot forever if I keep being the man I am now.

    A beta, lol.
     
  2. germanshepherd07

    germanshepherd07 New Member

    And my fetish is becoming more vile by the day. I can't believe I even get off on this fetish. I wouldn't do it in real life as I'm OCD(and people with OCD don't handle germs very well, haha) but yet, it's mainly one of my main genres I like to watch.
     
  3. Metal

    Metal Get busy living or get busy dying

  4. totallyyours

    totallyyours Loyalty, honor, and a willing heart

    Like me, it's time to blaze some new paths in the brain and in life. We'll have to do things we may not like but we'll grow to love the freedom that comes with it. I'm doing ERP from Feedtherightwolf and training my brain to be productive.
     
  5. SmallStroke

    SmallStroke Member

    Keep at it good sir. It's always hilarious to read your posts and I wish you good luck.
     
  6. germanshepherd07

    germanshepherd07 New Member

    ....I'm glad you find it hilarious.
     
  7. Bazooka Joe

    Bazooka Joe New Member

    Finally, germansheperd.

    You were whining around for a good while now. I hope now you get your shit together.
     
  8. Pluto

    Pluto New Member

    Hey germanshepherd, I don't think it is healthy for you to be here. It seems like many people here are projecting their own failures onto you or use you as a scapegoat. An environment like that will make rebooting much more harder. Be aware that rebooting is not about prooving others something. It's about your health. So, just focus on developing emotional maturity and health. Work with a recovery program. I can recommend RecoveryNation and FeedTheRightWolf.
     
  9. Julesb69

    Julesb69 Be the change you want to be

    Hey German Shepard,

    I really appreciate your courage to step up and speak your truth like you have. And don't pay any attention to people who mock you or look for faults in you. They're a wasit of everyone's time and energy.

    It might also help if you don't readily give away your power, so maybe read over your entry and think twice before you post it to the community. For example, your subject heading automatically invites negativity from people, and because so many of us have such a low self-esteeem already, there's always going to be some who feel the need shit on others to make themselves feel better about themselves, when in reality they have nothing to boast about.

    There are many stages in the cycle of change and having Self-pity is one we all go through and quite often more than once too.

    Keep focussing on the great things in your life like this job you love and all your amazing personal qualities.

    Good luck and all the best my friend
     
  10. Deleted User

    Deleted User Guest

    GermanShepherd,

    I can appreciate that you keep coming back here in search of help as it shows that somewhere deep inside of you that you do really want to find recovery. It seems like your addiction has its grip fairly tight around you though. In your opinion, what's it going to take for you to get serious and leave the filth behind? How would you like to see your life improve without PMO?
     

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