I have fully recovered from PIED.

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by iHaveSeenEvil, May 2, 2015.

  1. iHaveSeenEvil

    iHaveSeenEvil Do it for her, the mother of my children.

    I have fully recovered from PIED.
    How do I know?
    EVERYTIME I go to have sex with my girlfriend I get fully hard and it lasts the entire duration of sex.
    I'm talking about 100% erections.
    I use NO pills to help either. No vitamins, no extracts. Nothing. 100% natural.

    I used to be at a point where I couldn't get hard, at all, for another girl. Even girls I've tried 20+ times with.
    I had so, so, so many failed attempts.
    I suffered from some of the worst PIED.

    So to make a long story short, it started when I was 22.
    I noticed I couldn't get hard anymore for multiple different girls I was sexually attracted to.
    Lasted for 2 years before I found YBOP.

    Before my ED I had sexual relationships with 3 girls, from 16-21 years old.
    Collectively I dated them for roughly 4 years, (obviously not at the same time), with active sex lives.
    Then PIED began.

    I watched porn routinely (maybe twice a day?) from 15 til 23 years old.
    Never anything super hardcore or weird, but frequently as fuck.

    I started by completely removing all MO.
    From June 2013 til January 2014 I cut out all MO, then gradually reintroduced it in moderation.
    Around late May/early June of 2014 I started seeing a girl who would later be my girlfriend.
    Things started off slow, which I really needed, but within a month we were on sleeping terms.
    There were multiple times that I failed to get hard enough for sex, but with rewiring I started seeing MAJOR improvements.
    By one month of rather consistent rewiring (kissing, fondling, cuddling, sexual encounters) I was seeing prominent success with my erections being achieved and lasting throughout sex.
    During that time, my erections would sometimes drop down to 60-70%, or go completely flaccid before coming back, or fail entirely, but improvements were seen.
    By three months the issue was almost entirely gone.

    It's been about 10 months with this girl now and for 6-7 months my erection problems have been 100% non-existent.
    Every time we get sexy my dick works perfectly, and I have no ED/DE/PE issues at all.
    ANY position we try I stay at 100%.
    While initially recovering I would go soft during doggie style, especially if we were standing, and this NEVER happens anymore.
    I am 100% capable of sex in any position, any place, any time.
    I never flatline anymore, either.
    I always feel sexually satisfied, not flatlined or empty.
    We can fuck 4 times in one day, (yes, we have a pretty active sex life), and I never feel drained, or worn out.
    Obviously at those hardcore moments I need time to recover before I am sexually active again, but it's like a day at absolute max.
    I can also masturbate again multiple times in a day (3-4) without consequences.
    Essentially I can orgasm as much as I want without consequence.

    Recovering for me was very non-linear.
    And honestly the only way I could figure out if I was recovering was when I was with my girl.
    Towards the beginning, sometimes I would feel 100% flatlined, it felt like no way in hell I could achieve a boner that day, and then suddenly laying next to her it happened.
    So never judge your progress unless you have a girl (or guy, if that's your preference) to test it with.

    I was very fortunate to have a girl who didn't freak out when I couldn't perform, and I attribute most of my success towards her attitude.
    I also attribute rewiring to be a major part of my success, even more than rebooting.
    Anxiety was the worst thing for me during my recovery.
    But with a girl who didn't get upset, anxiety was non-existent, and recovery became easy.
    I never have anxiety or performance anxiety anymore. I am always just 100% excited and happy before sex.
    Honestly, more girls are okay with this situation than you'd normally believe.

    Discovering I had PIED and my journey to curing it was the most difficult thing I have ever dealt with in my life.
    I was suicidal, morbidly depressed, extremely anxious and a complete fucking mess.
    If it seems like it is an impossible task for you, please do not despair.
    I had 100% flat, non-existent erections for the hottest girls in bed, constantly.
    Now that never happens.
    It is 100% possible.
    It may not happen immediately, but it WILL happen.
    I have gone from the complete worst PIED to 100% cured.
    The past 6-7 month now, zero erections problems in the last 150+ sexual encounters I've had with my girlfriend.
    We have sex at least 5 times a week. Usually around 10, no exaggeration.

    This is my journal, starting on the top of page 23 is where my story picks up into success.
    It is very detailed with how my recovery went, step by step progress for myself, I journalled all of it.
    I journalled a fuck ton, and honestly my first 1-22 pages are an emotional rollercoaster of pure bullshit, so I don't recommend reading it.
    It's a total shit show, lol.

    Sorry for the long post, but I feel like all of this was important information.

    If any of you have ANY questions, PLEASE feel free to ask me.
    I want to be able to help if you have any questions.

    ((EDIT: I feel like it's important to mention that I get erections easily with my girlfriend.
    Kissing will make me hard.
    Fondling her will make me hard.
    Watching her undress will make me hard.
    I don't need any stimulation to get me going, it just happens on its own.

    Obviously kissing out in a public place I'm not going to get an erection (sometimes I do :p), but if we are laying in bed (or in another appropriate sex place) kissing will get me hard.

    Also, quitting porn has also made it possible for me to fully enjoy a girlfriend.
    Before I would watch so much porn that I thought I was missing out on so much sexuality in life.
    I was never fully satisfied with a girlfriend because I thought there was so much more out there for me.
    I thought there were endless hot girls to have threesomes with.
    There isn't.
    That was the delusion of porn.

    I am capable of having a very loving, full, and happy relationship with my girlfriend that I wouldn't have been able to have using porn.))
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    TIGER-STYLE36 Member

    Hey buddy congratulations, stories like your's are really inspiring. I like that you point out that you won't really be able to judge your progress until you have your lady next to you during the moment of truth, that is a very good point. I've been rebooting since 8/12/15 , and I haven't MO'd , or watched P in all that time. I think I am making great progress too, and I feel just about fully recovered, I guess I won't know until I reunite with my wife (she is currently overseas). I think the reason why I think I am really close to recovery is because I can really feel my libido raging, I haven't had a chance to rewire yet, but my desire is so strong that I really desire to stick it in her lol.
  3. Kirkrod

    Kirkrod New Member

    Congrats man, I do remember reading some of it a month ago and yeah it sounded hellish which is what I experience EVERY relapse. Going through the withdrawals symptoms is what is going to be motivating me at the moment because I don't want to deal with that shit again.
  4. Mr-NoFap

    Mr-NoFap YOLO #NoFap :-)

    Congrats on your recovery. Sounds like you're living the good life.

    How was your mw then and now as well as your pre- and post reboot libido?
  5. Congratulations!
  6. grego

    grego Member

    That's absolutely beautiful, I wanna know though: what was your internet use like during reboot? Were you online alot or did you avoid the computer?
  7. Giuseppe Garibaldi

    Giuseppe Garibaldi [url=http://pmo-tracker.appspot.com/?u=60434948879

    Congratulations,I'm really happy for you!
    A question: did you have erection to porn?
  8. Goldybrar

    Goldybrar Member

    Thanks man for sharing
  9. ireboot

    ireboot Member

    great job man. i have a few questions for you, in order to learn from your success.

    how long did you abstain before attempting to have sex?
    how long was your flatline?
    did orgasms send you back into flatline?

    one thing i learned from reading your success story is not judge our progress without a girl being present. thats a great point.
  10. fugu

    fugu "You know, feelin' good, livin' betta." :) Staff Member

    Amazing to hear. Thanks so much for posting this and being willing to answer questions!

    I'm so glad everything is going well dude. :)
  11. Panonymos

    Panonymos Humility is a virtue

    This is how it 's done. By going through failure with your head up.
  12. iHaveSeenEvil

    iHaveSeenEvil Do it for her, the mother of my children.

    THANK YOU everyone for your positive feedback!

    I had no way of figuring out if I was recovering until I started getting sexy with my girl.
    I still kinda felt flatlined while I started seeing her, but when we got in bed my dick felt otherwise.
    It took a handful of times (maybe like 10) to start getting really good erections and keeping them, but it is literally impossible to judge your recovery without a girl present. I cannot emphasize that enough.
    I'm sure you will start doing very well with your wife when she returns :)

    My morning wood now is pretty daily.
    I never paid much mind to my morning wood pre-reboot, but the flatline seemed to make it disappear.
    Either way, I now have really solid morning wood very frequently.
    Once a week or so I'll have to wait a little bit after I wake up in order to walk around my house because my morning wood is so strong.

    I used the internet pretty much as frequently as I did pre-reboot, minus all the porn watching obviously.
    I spent as much time on social media, and aimlessly browsing as I did before, but cutting down internet time wasn't a part of my recovery goal, so I also never tried limiting myself.
    If I was awake late at night and super drunk I would try to avoid it, because I didn't want to have some drunken relapse.

    Yes, I never lost my ability to get an erection to porn.
    It definitely did sometimes become sluggish, and sometimes I would have to work at it to get hard.
    I would rarely/never get an erection without stroking, however.

    I tried having sex a handful of times towards the very beginning, there was some girl I was seeing, but my relationship with her was so shitty that she didn't help at all.
    There was another girl who I tried having sex with a few months in, and that didn't work. I got an erection and then it immediately went down and stayed down.

    My flatline lasted like a good six months.
    It wasn't so bad the first few months then it hit me really hard.
    My dick felt lifeless and withdrawn.
    I started feeling more libido like 8 months in, and it just kept getting better and better as I reintroduced masturbation and orgasm.
    It eventually went back to a normal sexually functioning point.

    Orgasms did make me feel drained and libidoless, like not in a sexually satisfied way, like a sexually dead way.
    This happened for a few months but then the orgasms stopped flatlining me.
    I can have as many as I want now and feel totally fine the next day or the day after.
    If I orgasm a bunch of times I might not want to MO for like a day, but I could if I wanted to.
    Obviously I'm still human and need a little bit of time to chill between sessions, but it's back to how it should be.
    I feel sexually satisfied when I orgasm, not flatlined.

    Thanks man! I appreciate the support!

    The wrong girl can totally fuck up a reboot.
    Some girls can be so shitty about men not being able to get hard, but the simple truth is there are a lot of girls who are understanding and are interested in you regardless of how well your dick works.
    I attribute a lot of my success (specifically in the anxiety category) to how well Lyss handled things. I never had to explain it to her, never had to mention porn or ED or anything.
    I just told her I need some time to warm up to her, and that was it.

    Yes, I had HPPD. I really never notice it anymore at all. I would say I don't have HPPD anymore.
    I would constantly hallucinate and felt mindblowing DP/DR, cognitive dysfunction and anxiety 24/7.
    That is all completely clearing up! Took a little more than a year.
    That, however, is a totally different story, lol.

    I only ever drink anymore, and the occasional Xanax.
    HPPD has scared me away from ever smoking weed again, let alone anything harder than that.

    My mind is feeling better now and I will never do anything ever again to possibly put myself in that situation
  13. gameover

    gameover Age: 26

    Great to hear mate.
  14. Giuseppe Garibaldi

    Giuseppe Garibaldi [url=http://pmo-tracker.appspot.com/?u=60434948879

    Thank you,and again congratulations!!
  15. Goldybrar

    Goldybrar Member

    i would like to know your longest streak and how many times did you had sex during reboot journey?MO?
  16. pimpetry

    pimpetry Have more fun!

    Thanks a lot for sharing your story man. Amazing reminder what my sexual life should look like if it was taken care of.

    I have a question:

    What would you do if you were in my shoes?

    I haven't watched porn for one and a half years and I have a very supportive girlfriend.
    But I still have PIED. Reason is that I didn't let my brain to heal, I indulged in some of my fetishes with my girlfriend that I guess had the same effect as watching porn. Okay, porn is much worse, but still, my ED is still pretty bad. If I can get hard enough to have sex, I have to stuff my penis into my gf's vagina, so it's like 60-70% hard, I cannot just slide in. I don't even enjoy sex too much.

    I'm totally fed up with this situation. I want to do the right thing. But I'm not really sure what it should be. Should I avoid every sexually related action?

    What would you advice?

    I appreciate your answer.
  17. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    Indulging in real world fetishes should make your dick harder, not make your dick softer. I imagine you started really young on porn, little experience, long sessions, edging a lot? If so, you're rewire phase takes a long time.

    Definitely don't avoid real world sex, keep that going. No porn, no masturbation, no fantasy is the recipe. When having sex with your girlfriend DON"T go into fantasy pay attention to what's happening.
  18. qrayzhd

    qrayzhd New Member

    Thanks for the motivation and congratulations. When you say you have rewired to your girlfriend does that mean that only your girlfriend turns you on or does that mean real girls in general turn you on now? I just find it hard to imagine that i could go from zero arousal checking out hot girls IRL to being cured simply by rewiring with one girl, if that makes sense lol.
  19. iHaveSeenEvil

    iHaveSeenEvil Do it for her, the mother of my children.

    I would cut out all sexual stimulation other than what your girlfriend can offer you.
    I seem to have an unconventional opinion with playing with fetishes, but I don't think it makes a difference.
    If you're getting the fetish sexual satisfaction from your girlfriend, and not porn, then I don't see the harm.
    Our PIED problems are porn related, not fetish related.

    And I dealt with a good bit of the 60-70% erections where I would have to squeeze the base of my dick to get it full enough to slide in.
    Honestly, just keep trying that method. Sometimes it wasn't fully enjoyable for me, but I kept trudging through those 60-70% erections and forcing myself to perform even with half-assed erections, and they eventually turned into 100% erections.
    Even if you aren't fully hard, your brain will eventually relearn that it "likes" the vagina, and you will start seeing improvements with your erections.
    It sounds sorta brutal to say "force it", but honestly how else is your brain going to learn or become used to a vagina? It worked for me, anyways.

    A question I have- how long have you been rewiring for?
    In my opinion, rebooting alone is sometimes not enough.

    I am definitely rewired to more than just my girlfriend now.
    Real girls in general turn me on now!
    For instance, I can look at a girl I find incredibly sexy and feel a physical need to masturbate.
    It makes sense what you're speculating, but one girl was enough for me to reintroduce myself to normal arousal!
  20. qrayzhd

    qrayzhd New Member

    That's awesome, thanks for clearing that up.

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