I just joined this page today and enjoyed reading some posts. Its good to hear some honesty. I have been unable to beat this porn addiction for about 10 years now but whenever I tried I only ever did it by will power. I actually have really good willpower for nearly everything (was a heavy drinker and got that in check) so I got really negative when it didn't work for Porn. After some severe low points in my marriage when my wife found about my porn use, I would try again, then I failed again... The last few years have been better and I love my wife and only want to be with her, but the porn thing has fucked us up a bit and has complicated our sex life together. Its my fault, I know that and now I am finally looking into this further because I realize that I need to do something different to move on from porn and get rid of it from my life. I really don't like it and my wife likes it even less! I made excuses before about it not being a big deal for me and really believe/believed that it was some personal thing that didn't/shouldn't impact on my life and had no bearing on my feelings for my wife. I guess therefore that I mostly wanted to stop it because she hates it, but I obviously didn't have good enough reasons to stop watching porn. I have been mildly successful in improving my porn use but the behaviors are still there. The "call" in my brain to look something up that starts with normal browsing but somehow ends up looking at women and then porn or just pictures. I realize that I don't have control and its such a fucking waste of time that I could be doing so many other great things. Anyway, I am looking at the whole issue more seriously and at all the negative things surrounding porn to help move forward and I hope this blog will be part of that journey. I am on day 4 now! how they hell do you get past that "calling" when you need to masturbate or just need that fix? thanks for reading.