Day 1 I used to have an account here and thought I was doing really well and could do without it..... Suddenly I'm struggling to go a week without giving in to my urges. I've tried to fill my time in I cycle 8 miles a day Go to the gym 3 times a week Bed at 10 Wake at 6 and play guitar... I've joined an SAA group... But I still find if there is ten minutes free my mind goes to p.... I don't want it P gives me false promises P makes me feel like the time I'm using is worthwhile it's pointless P makes me miserable P pulls me away from real people And yet yesterday I have in again. They say the first step is accepting you are powerless..... Well I am. I am powerless to resist p. I don't know where to go next. Handing myself over to God I suppose. Not sure how I do that. I should I've gone to church my whole life. But more as a spectator than an active participant.