I am quitting porn.

Discussion in 'Ages 25-29' started by Nate, Jul 9, 2012.

  1. Nate

    Nate New Member

    Hi everyone,

    I am quitting porn. I found this site a couple weeks ago when I heard it mentioned by a friend. I went about 9 days without any PM (porn or masturbating? i haven't quite figured out the acronyms) but I relapsed yesterday. As I start over I wanted to start a journal that will hopefully help keep me strong along with the support of anyone else.

    Like most people I would imagine I started looking at porn when I was around 12 or so. Pretty much since the first time I got the internet I was using it to look at swimsuit models and then porn. Looking back I can remembering spending hours alone looking at porn even in middle school.

    As a kid I was very shy and always felt socially isolated. I am sure that this is in some respect a result of spending so much time looking at porn. In high school I rarely hung out with girls and didn't have my first kiss until college.

    Through college I had a serious girlfriend and spells without heavy porn use, but it has always been there. Throughout the arc of my porn use I have definitely started looking at more intense porn, some of which I am deeply ashamed of. I have spent entire days when I am feeling particularly low/hungover in my room jackin it to porn.

    I have since gotten a lot more confident socially but I still feel socially awkward/isolated at times and tend to go through big mood swings that I often deal with by binging on porn. I have had two longer term girlfriends with whom I have had a pretty good sex life, but any other flings that I have had a chance to have sex with have ended with me not being able to get an erection. For the vast majority of my life, porn has been my primary sexual outlet. I have been aware that porn has been a problem for a while now and have tried to stop several times before. Before the last couple weeks I was binging on average about 4 times a week.

    I am now 26 and haven't had sex in a year and a half thanks to going home with probably 6 girls and not being able to get it up. I have gone on a couple dates recently with a new girl and I am absolutely f*cking sick of feeling bad about myself and not being able to perform with women.

    I am giving up porn entirely, but I guess my first milestone to shoot for will be 3 months. I hope this community will be helpful in my journey.
     
  2. NoBronha

    NoBronha New Member

    It will surely help you Nate, I'm also new to the community and starting my journal/journey today.
    I'm on day 3, let's see how we progress, with the right mindset we can overcome anything.
    My journal is called "The Turning Point - Before and After YBOP", haven't figured how to put it on my signature yet but that's okay..

    I'm also shy and not the most social person, had only a few girlfriends which I enjoyed the sex, the problem when you get a girl you just met in bed is the pressure to perform.. It's not how we should act for a while, I'm gonna let my body and mind get used to the situation and making the most of it without any pressure.. For now, no PMO (which stands for porn, masturbating and orgasm, you were right on the acronym), just working and dedicating to the sports I'm gonna start soon..

    Good luck and see ya!
     
  3. Franken Penis

    Franken Penis New Member

    hi there and welcome.

    may the willpower be with you.
     
  4. Nate

    Nate New Member

    Thanks for the support guys. Last night I screwed up and started looking at porn online. I cut myself off before O though which is a step in the right direction I guess. I am going to keep moving forward.
     
  5. Franken Penis

    Franken Penis New Member

    there are these differencet phases:
    there is that moment when you realize that porn is a major cause of problems in your life and the euphoria that you identified the evil - wich lets you underestimate it by a great deal.

    and then the withdrawal kicks in...

    keep going. falling down is part of the process.
     

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