I’m 25 years old and have been struggling with a porn addiction for the past few years. I’d say the hardest being from around 20- now. I’ve watched porn, looked at and save Instagram models pictures, and sexted with random people online. 6 months ago I got into a relationship with an amazing girl. But I’m ruining our relationship with my bad habits. She’s caught me numerous times and has forgiven me before but this time I think I really messed it up for good. I keep end up repeating the cycle. I think it stems from my depression. Growing up not feeling good enough and being called fat and a loser (mostly by my dad) destroyed my confidence and self esteem all through out my high school and early 20s. I’ve worked very hard to get to a point of not being severely depressed, I’ll be it with medication. But I can’t seem to stop the porn. My medication makes it difficult for me to finish during sex with my partner and even with mastarbation sometimes. It makes me frustrated and feel like I’m not enough of a man because I can’t cum for her. So I end up going down that dark tunnel and turn towards porn to try and get that dopamine hit. I don’t want to lose her. I’ve deleted my Instagram and started this for a try. But I don’t know if it’s enough. I know I deserve this but it still hurts so bad.