How Jesus cured my Femdom Fetish & Porn Addiction

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by Emanuel Ericsson, Jan 26, 2019.

  1. Emanuel Ericsson

    Emanuel Ericsson New Member

    Hey guys,

    I want to tell my story about how Jesus saved me from my femdom fetish. First of all sorry for my bad English :)

    I am 28 years old. Like many of you I had this fetish since childhood. In my childhood I didn't have any access to internet so this fetish remained in my imagination. But when we got an internet access BOOM! Millions of femdom porns that I could enjoy. My fetish got weirder and more extreme. What is the most extreme femdom porn you have seen? I have seen them all! I don't want to mention them to enable triggers. I am telling this to show you I understand you and I'm not someone who developed this fetish by porn, I had it when I was a 5 years old child without any access to porn. I even played some soft femdom games with my childhood friends ;)

    When I was 17 years old I found the most extreme femdom porn movies and stories that messed my mental situation badly, too heavy for a 17 years old boy. I told myself I can't continue like this anymore so started to see Psychologists. One of them prescribed me medicines that made me worse. When I was using his medicines I was so angry and mentally unstable and nothing changed in my fetish. I tried everything else, consulting, meditation, forcing myself to watch normal porn. But each time I failed.

    My fetish got worse and worse until I read about internet porn effects on mind and body and I found yourbrainonporn---com. I tried to stop watching porn but it leaded me to a worse path: Edging! There were times that I would watched porn for 6 hours! (yes 6 hours of non-stop femdom porn watching) without ejaculation.

    Year ago I accepted Jesus as my savior. Jesus showed me that he doesn't want me to be a slave, he doesn't like my addiction and he has come to save me, but believe me it was still so hard. I couldn't resist femdom porns. I prayed so much, I read Bible every day I asked Jesus to save me from this fetish. Sometimes I won and I could resist it for few days or even weeks but then again...

    This got worse when I found a girlfriend and could persuade her to try it with me. We started by playing mistress / slave rules in chat. At first she was disgusted but after a while she liked it. She liked the power and influence she had one me.

    IT WAS A HELL! In one side I was happy that now I can experience my fetish with a real girl and in the other hand I was disgusted by it. I felt like a crap each time we did it in chat (We didn't find the chance to try it in real world because God saved me before that). I didn't want to be humiliated and dishonored. Also it was against of what God wanted from me. Sorry my English is not so good to describe the feeling I had but I'm sure you understand this contradiction.

    Jesus showed me that this girl should go out of my life. It was hard as hell! For 20 years I have this melting desire to be slave of a girl and now God says you must not do that! But I managed to do it. I obeyed Him and never lost my faith and kept praying and obeying God as much as I could. There were a spiritual path that takes so much time to describe but in shortly this is what I did:
    1. I prayed to God everyday
    2. I read Bible everyday
    3. I saw movies about Jesus like Passion of Christ and The Bible mini-serial, I really suggest last one to see how faith can save you.
    4. Each time I lost to Satan and femdom fetishes I backed to my heavenly father. I prayed again and asked Him for forgiveness and saving me.
    5. I obeyed God as much as could.

    And few days ago the miracle happened! I went to a femdom porn website that I visit usually. I felt I don't like them and something in me rejects them. At first I thought it's just one time thing. Same happened next days. This time I thought maybe I got an erection problem and I lost my libido. but then I visited to a normal porn website and I was excited! I ejaculated to those normal porns few times with pleasure! no force, full pleasure! I know it's still a sin to see porn but this is a great sign that I'm cured!

    From that day I have little desire to go to femdom porn website but I'm excited about normal sex. I still have temptations and Satan tries to back me, I even watched femdom porns few times but it didn't took so long and I stopped it soon and asked God for forgiveness. It's not as strong as always, very very weak desire!

    I never experienced this before! I had this fetish for 20 years and there were no time that I didn't want it. I always had excitement and energy for it. Now I feel freed, saved. I don't see myself as a slave anymore. I'm free! Jesus saved me and made me a free man.

    Guys! my friends! who everyone that this fetish has ruined your life. I was there for 20 years, to the point I was confident there is no chance and I should live with it forever. Like you, I tried anything but It didn't work. Like you, I felt like a crap anytime I ejaculated to those porns. Like you, I said to myslef thousands times that I won't watch it again but I did.

    But guys there is a good news for you: Jesus died to save you from this chain! Yes for you! Jesus loves you and wants to save you. Jesus understands you, knows your pain, knows your fetish, he doesn't judge you, he has come exactly for people like you! He says "I came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance". Yes, believe it: Jesus died on cross to save a guy with femdom fetish like you and me. Jesus don't see you as others, a weird guy. No! He sees you as precious as his son. YOU ARE NOT A SLAVE, YOU ARE HIS SON! Slavery and femdom fetishes are just chains that Satan has attached to you and Jesus can break them. He believes in you and If you believe in him he can save you.

    After watching thousands of femdom porn movies that tell you "you are worthless, you are slave, you are weak, no woman loves you, you have no honor and etc" you may believed those words but Jesus doesn't think same. He knows you are worthy (Worthy is the lamb), you are precious, you are strong and he truely loves you. Your enemy is not Femdom Porn. Your enemy is Satan who enslaved you with this fetish. Everyones has its own chain and this is yours. But Jesus died on cross to save all of us from our chains.

    And At the end here is my advise: Obey God and he'll move! My miracle happened after when I had to choose between my girlfriend and God. Guys, believe me it was hardest decision I made in my whole life but I obeyed God and he saved me.

    If you guys had any question I'd love to answer.
     
  2. weir

    weir Member

    Thats quite read, congratulations

    I was/ am addicted to cuckold porn but i know as days will pass when i completley remove porn from my life i will be cured
     
  3. Freedom from Servitude

    Freedom from Servitude Active Member

    Good for you. While I am not religious myself, I know several people who have found that religion has helped them with their addictions. I'm glad that you have found something that works for you.

    Something that I am not clear about from your post is whether you are still watching vanilla porn or whether you have decided to quit it all together? Also, I am intrigued to know, if you don't mind sharing, why you feel that you had a fendom addiction from such an early age? Were you abused?
     
  4. TheNightfly

    TheNightfly Member

    Praise Jesus! Now Do you still watch regular porn? Your statement said that worked for you and that was a victory. I agree, I don’t want to be a slave to anything. That’s just how satan works. By tempting us with the most beautiful alluring thing we can imagine. It really is interesting how he runs parallel with addiction. I need to get back to reading the Bible and saying a rosary. I am new to this and am more edgy than usual, and that’s saying something. Thank you for sharing. Porn is a hidden addiction that many men fall to. Even one that appear to be what some say are religious.
     

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