I'm a married, father of one who loves his wife completely. Can't stop porn and lie about it. Too ashamed to say, "Yes, I looked at porn." Wife is overweight and feels that I'm not attracted to her yet I seek out images of women who are fit. Wife isn't even against occasional porn use but I hide it. Of course, she finds out and the cycle begins again. I lie about it, I fess up, I'm on the straight and narrow, and then I rationalize and start peeking... I haven't viewed "real" porn sites in over a year but there's no end to it on Pinterest, Tumblr, even Google searches. I'm worried that this marriage will end. We both love each other but there's no sex, she feels that I've never been truly attracted to her, and she's staying for our son. I went to a therapist for some time but it didn't really feel useful. I have no male friends to confide in so now I'm here. Any tips for a first-timer?