How do I know if I’m fully healed or just in a “calm” phase of my withdrawals?

Discussion in 'Pornography Addiction' started by hokipa, Feb 16, 2023.

  1. hokipa

    hokipa New Member

    Hi community, I’m almost 5 months in my recovery and have to say it’s been a very difficult journey so far

    I experienced a lot of withdrawals (especially psychological ones) that made me think I was getting crazy

    I was literally living in my own head thinking nothin made sense in life, couldn’t sleep and lost my appetite, bad bad weeks

    Anyway, for the last 2 weeks more or less, I started feeling better, hoping I was out of the woods or near my final step of the journey thereabouts (I was not thinking about tragic scenarios or hopeless thoughts, just living my present moment, but not that sense of “enthusiasm” everybody talks about when they are fully healed). In the last two days I started thinkin about sad things and scenarios almost like I was in the first part of my journey, just when I thought I was almost fully healed, sadness and hopeless thoughts arised again in my mind, my question is: How do I know if I’m fully recovered/healed or I’m just in a “calm” phase before the next storm of withdrawals come? Can someone who’s already and surely fully healed answer me? Thank you (I don’t know if it can depend on that but I found myself looking at (not indulgin that much) a photo that popped up on social media and that aroused me but soon stopped looking after some minutes and didn’t come back to that later)
  2. Dr. Jekyll

    Dr. Jekyll Member

    I guess you are really healed when you stop caring and you start living your life porn-free without any effort.

    That does not mean you will always be happy because life can be hard sometimes, but you will be strong enough to face reality and look for solutions to your problems.
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  3. hokipa

    hokipa New Member

    Yes, I meant how do I know I don’t have to expect other withdrawals (i talk about the psychological ones) and can consider myself free from them
  4. Dr. Jekyll

    Dr. Jekyll Member

    What kind of psychological withdrawal symptoms are you talking about?
  5. BackOnTrack

    BackOnTrack Active Member

    if you're an addict you will always respond strongly to the drug (porn, pictures of girls etc.).
    So you're never fully healed, but you will feel pretty good when you're not doing it.
    Once you relapse after a long time of abstinence you will realize the ground breaking difference, of how shit you feel compared to being abstinent.
  6. -Luke-

    -Luke- Well-Known Member

    They can come in waves, so I don't have a satisfying answer for you. I don't think there's a way to know for sure at this point. But why not look at it this way: You have overcome these symptoms for five months. So if they come back, you already know that you can deal with them, even if it's hard. If they do not return, great, if they do, you'll deal with them again and they'll pass again.
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  7. Im going through the same thing It felt like I was having a panic attack even though I have done nothing wrong. It's like my mind won't stop thinking about pied to the point it causes my body to twitch.
  8. BackOnTrack

    BackOnTrack Active Member

    I guess you will always be anxious about PIED until you have sex with your partner.
    How can you convince yourself the problem is solved until you actually see it for yourself?
    After 90 days of noPMO I went from DE to the opposite, however with time it normalizes.
  9. MikeJohnson

    MikeJohnson New Member

    There are more than just 1 way to know if you have been cured. 1 thing is if theres an opportunity but you tend to fend it off without second thoughts.
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  10. ssllmmee

    ssllmmee Member

    I don't think there's such thing as fully healed for any addiction.
  11. BackOnTrack

    BackOnTrack Active Member

    true. healing is the wrong word, you get the problem under control.
    If you manage to live most of your life without porn that's success.
    Even relapsing only occasionally is much better than watching porn 3 times a day.
    I can get excited by thoughts about my fetish, but I havent acted on it since over 5 years irl, so that's OK for me.
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  12. Rengaw

    Rengaw Will log on every other week from 13/10/2016

    2 years. I have been told a full recovery from any addiction takes roughly 2 years. Both mentaly and physically.

    Simply put, if one does not change the mindset, even being physically sober, the reboot is futile.
  13. Larry

    Larry Member

    It is probably useful to think of this as an addiction, but it is not a physical addiction such as heroine. Do you know of any evidence that it takes two years to recover?
  14. Larry

    Larry Member

    I don’t know that is true. When my sex life returns to normal and I have so serious urges to masturbate while watching porn, I will consider myself fully healed.
  15. lukeman3000

    lukeman3000 New Member

    Man, I feel this. I’m on day 76 currently and on day 30 I felt like I got hit with withdrawal symptoms HARD. Then things seemed to be gradually trending up. Then day 60 and again around day 74 I experienced some really dark days.

    I find myself wondering if what I’m experiencing is even related to porn or not. My main complaint is lack of energy/drive, and unrefreshing sleep. I wake up feeling like shit, like I want to just go back to sleep. I keep thinking surely porn isn’t responsible for this, and maybe it’s not, but I’ll never know unless k give it enough time.

    For example I know Gabe Deem experienced withdrawal symptoms for like 6 months. I just don’t know if that’s what this is or not, but it doesn’t matter because I don’t need porn in my life anyways. I just hope that it is because I want to feel better..

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