I had a beautiful girlfriend for 2 years. This girl was an absolute 10/10, drop dead gorgeous, worked on her body like crazy (squats squats squats), I would be with her and just about every guy would turn his head. I took her virginity when she was 17 and i was 19. Throughout our 2 year relationship we had sex a lot, but my erections were no where near what they should have been at 19 years old. I started watching porn at 12 years old, watched it daily, and realized my erections were getting weaker and weaker. When I was with her, I would cum pretty fast, usually within 5 to 10 minutes, and my erections were rarely rock hard. I became socially withdrawn, anxious and unmotivated. Eventually she broke up with me and I was devastated because I didn't really know what I had till it was gone. I miss her till this day. My question to you is, how do I get over the fact that I was never able to truly satisfy herm? It eats at me inside, I constantly have thoughts of other guys banging her longer and better than me and it sickens me. It's like my mind is a bully against me and makes fun of me. I'm sure she is fucking other dudes now, dudes that are more jacked than me and can please her better. And that's what fucking kills me inside, to know that I had such a beautiful girl and was never able to give it to her the way I always really wanted. I just couldn't stop watching porn. Mentally, how would you guys handle this feeling of guilt and shame? It kills me everyday when I think about what could have been.