I cant believe I relapsed. Don’t know what I was thinking or why I was so weak. It was almost like some other part of me took control and my other side was just watching it happen. Worse I don’t know if I even put up a fight - just caved. trying a new thing. I turned on grayscale color filters on my phone. Supposedly the colors are made to draw us in. It’s pretty easy to turn off but will try my best not to.