hello world. first - thanks to all who’ve come before me, you have inspired me. Second - apologies in day for any typos or grammar problems. Third - appreciate all comments responses. Fourth - I’m doing this to keep my self accountable. And possibly substituting check this for comments- for dopamine hit. Me. I’m a Porn Addict. I’ve been one since puberty back in mid-80s. First magazines then a stolen vhs and over time to porn sites. For a while in my 30s I was good. Met my wife had a lot of fun then kids put a damper. Then life/medical issues led to issues and my decline into porn addiction. Let’s just say my wife and I haven’t been intimate in years (divorce is not an option, due to kids. And I would rather suffer than have them not have a 2 parent home. so since I haven’t had sex in years I started MO the PMO then to internet PMO with my “smart” phone. Then multiple times a day. Then into prone position PMO. PMO started taking longer and longer, less and less sensation. Sometimes I spent over an hour to get PMO same time my kids , work people saw I was getting moodier. Depressed and had fits of anger. Low point was having a movie night and I lost it at the kids cause they were talking and laughing during the movie and I just snapped. . One day I started googling to see wtf was wrong with me. Tumbled on to the Ted Talk and YBOP and This forum. I tried the taper several times and relapsed. Quit and relapsed. so about a month ago I said I would quit porn. 7 day itch hit me bad and I relapsed. PMO. Felt horrible the rest of the day. Since then I’ve been off Porn videos for about 3 weeks since. I have MO,d twice. On day 7 then 8 days later. There’s something about that 7 day streak. I am also slowly realizing that there’s more porn than just videos. I was/am addicted to Twitter. I was following so May porn stars OF /Insta girls. Yup that’s porn. So I’ve quit Twitter/Insta as well 2 weeks now. Deleted apps. Insta I deleted the account. reading more about dompamine I saw I needed that hit. I still have urges to go to websites to look at women. Yesterday turned on content filter to block all on my phone. This am was really really itching but held off. I did I need some other stimulus. I’ve been reading the posts on here on/off. But said today I would make an account. Start a journal and hold myself accountable. I think o crave the checking. Rather refresh this than other sites. So hopefully this works. btw - I don’t get some acronyms on different posts so if anyone know of a n acronym list lmk. I don’t know if I’ll post every day. Lets see. what else: Thanks. If anyone reads this at all. Thank you. A simple comment occasionally would be most appreciated.