Hey guys, Im new to this forum. I have discovered it through the website "Your brain on Porn" (YBOP) and I wanted to see what other sufferers think about my situation. So I have always had OCD in my life (Im 19 yo btw) and just about 5 or 6 months ago I started having the random thought of being gay, which destroyed my mind completely. I also have a porn addiction (Im doing the relapse right now for about 2 weeks). It started off with the regular stuff when I was 11 or 12 and it got more extreme year by year, ending at gay porn when I was about 17 yo. About three months ago I even started to fantasise about gay thoughts, out of the compulsion, which I never did before, because it turned me off. Now i even find these fantasies arousing! Have I turned gay or bi or whats the matter with my mind? It is likely I have HOCD, because I have been living a life full of the fear of being gay for 6 months and its literally killing me. I would be glad if I would get a reply by someone. Thanks in advance.