So I masturbated like 20 hours ago. And I had an opportunity to have sex with a girl over the weekend which obviously didn't happen. However I'm not feeling down. Because I'm currently in conversation with about 8 girls. Who all like me and if I didn't have PIED I already would've had sex with them. Over the years I've been relying on E.D drugs to have sex. Not knowing what their future side effects would be. For the sake of my recovery I'm willing to try them for the next 90 days. And go natural after that. The idea is simple, I have access to multiple girls who I can have sex with. Which simply means in actual fact I shouldn't be masturbating. And these girls offer me a chance to rewire. So every time I feel like fapping I'll call one of the girls over. Also it's not just about the sex I want to can meet and just have a conversation, take a walk while holding hands etc... because I believe porn has switched up my mind so much I have to retrain my mind not to see women as just sexual objects. I hope things go my way so that I continue posting. For now I'm fapping for what would be the last time in my life.
So since last I posted, I just had sex. I used Ed drugs. She was supposed to sleep over but I convinced her otherwise due to the stress of what if I can't get it up again and guess what it couldn't stand for round 2. So I took her home. She wasn't satisfied infact she's angry with me but I don't care as I feel to be selfish to regain my sexual health. The sex wasn't amazing but one fuck at a time. I also need to add I didn't masturbate as I had planned to on the previous post and I never did since. I'm four days pmo free Til my next fuck
Man, do not watch porn or masturbate, you will see improvement for sure. Rewire as much as possible. I hope to read some improvement story here. Keep going
Like I said til my next fuck. The girl I was posting about on the previous post let's call her Alicia. After Alicia left I went out to drink. And while out I met a girl, let's call her Comfort, so I talk to Comfort and she's feeling me. We kissed and I developed a boner. So we ended up going to my place. I had better sex this time. A solid 2 rounds and it couldn't get up for a while but after 30-40min of fondling I developed a boner. And fucked her for the 3rd round. Which was amazing and I gave her 5 orgasms(but who's counting ). I guess what I'm trying to say is to see if this new strategy will work cos sex with another human is nice. And I really hope this works out I don't wanna PMO anymore.
Today I had another experience. What I realized is that I have performance anxiety, before we get into it I'd be a nervous wreck but once I get a boner I relax a bit. Well this one we'll call her Sucess. We've been talking for a while and today she finally came through. I last took ED pills on Saturday before having sex with Alicia and haven't taken any since because I'm not trying to have to much on my system however I have to mention the effects lasts for a while. So today with Success I managed to get a boner we didn't have sex but we had oral. We got naked and fondled she gave me head and I gave her head then we cuddled. Although we didn't go all the way I still feel it's a step in the right direction in terms of rewiring. I'm six days PMO free and have had three sexual encounters which I feel good about. Now as I'm typing this I have an urge to PMO but right after typing this post I'm going to just sleep because I know an orgasm is just a text away and with a real girl which I guess makes my urges that much more bearable. However this method of relying on ED medication scares me so I'm going to try use as less as possible until I can achieve boners on my own. Til my next post.
I'm on day 51 days no significant changes yet but the I haven't felt the urge to P.M.O in such a long time I hope it stays like this all my life.
