I'm 25. For more than a decade my experiences have aligned with Gary Wilson's collated research. Impaired (or poor) executive function, difficulty connecting naturally with others and escalation. I want to connect more with others but unintentionally struggle to initiate or respond. I struggle to abstain past a week without intense withdrawals, a buildup of desire, working around my internet filters, relapsing, experiencing repeated chaser effects, binging, motivation loss, irritability and the inability to restart for hours or days. This usually occurs on my phone in bed, usually first-thing or at bedtime so it's important I address insomnia too. I count sleep, not midnight, as the divider between each day. After years of exposure, sexual dysfunction and low body-image, I've developed the idea that missed sexual opportunities (real and imaginary) and the approval of women/anybody matter more than they do. I'm learning to relate compassionately with myself and cultivate contentment outside of this including letting go of past attachments. This includes prioritizing my body over technology and resolving chronic pain from it's usage which triggers some of my relapses. I'm trying to finally face the pain of taking full responsibility for my life, adopting a more assertive style and forgiving myself and others in the process. Today I had some setbacks. Tomorrow I start fresh.