Managed 7 days, new record, but relapsed on the 7'th day. Rather interesting, was how I relapsed. I was all ready to torrent some movies and edge for a good hour or two, but then I simply decided to stop fooling myself, turned the PC off, then masturbate normally, simply by the power of thought. Didn't feel ANY shame afterward, no regrets, simply vented some steam I guess. Also had a rather disturbing dream the other night: I dreamt I was watching myself watch porn , (in a sort of third person), and I was watching some really disturbing stuff, stuff that I thought would be impossible to get excited about. Could this be my brain finally starting to go back to normal? Also totally failed a test at collage. What's interesting here is , again, me not having any regrets about it. I didn't study so I failed. I didn't fail because I'm stupid, or that It's impossible for me to study, it's simply because I chose not to, realizing beforehand that I was probably going to fail it. So I'm taking responsibility for my actions, good or bad as they are. Progress all around, even though these last 2 days could be considered failures .