Some of my encounters with prostitution were quite stressful, not because the girls were unpleasant or anything like that, but rather because I have my own personal issues. I am often affected by anxiety in social situations with strangers and so going to the brothel alone could be quite an ordeal. I have always had issues concerning my own self-worth and often feel that I am not good enough to associate with certain people owed to the cruel abuse and marginalization to which I was subjected back in my school days. In short, I suffer from an inferiority complex because of a troubled past. I rationalize with my mind that such way of thinking is absurd and that I have a lot of value as a human being despite the opinions of others, yet at the same time the vestiges of this delusion remain in my subconscience and continue to warp my perception of myself. I find myself with beautiful ladies and become anxious about what they may think of me or whether they see me as a worthy man. It doesn't matter that they are sexual workers, I still feel that I have to be respected by them and gain their approval. I fear that they think I am a freak or a weirdo. This often makes me feel really stressed and causes me to perform poorly. When I go to the brothels I always choose a Latina because I feel more comfortable around females of that racial group. The Latinas there tend to be pleased to have a sexual encounter with me and often like my appearance. I get no such attention from European females. I feel like a real man when I have a good time with a Latina, gaining their approval, but when I am around European girls I feel like a worthless dork, unlikely to be accepted as a real man. I don't know if this kind of complex has a formal psychological name, but it is a condition that has affected me for most of my adult life.