Discussion in 'Pornography Addiction' started by auzzie_mikey, Aug 21, 2019.
Hey just curious has anyone taken antidepressants for their entire life or for more than 10 years?
Nah, but are you at that point in your life? I can still provide insight.
Nope but I've been on antidepressants for 5 months and I think I will be taking them for the rest of my life.
I was on and off antis for about 3-4 years. It was never consistent but I can tell you that I didn't like relying on them. I think the key to beating depression is discipline and the will to stubbornly push forward even if you're sucking at a task.
Alright, so when I took antis, I developed a mental dependency -- like I couldn't be anything without them. I actually still feel this way low-key. The first time I took them about 8 years ago, I didn't think they would work but then one day I woke up with clarity, motivation and a focus like I had never known...ever. I felt so focused and felt like I actually had the capacity to retain knowledge and I no longer felt dumb. I felt brilliant and attractive -- it was during that period of about 2 months that I actually realized I'm a handsome guy.
However, I stopped taking them when I started smoking weed and (even took them when I was smoking for a while) and I got back to being depressed. I think that nofap, and not busting is integral to overcoming depression but you must retain. I believe anti-depressants are a bit of a cheatcode but nofap/retention is the act of playing out the game to get the reward...to an extent. Don't just retain, start living ie: work, get outside; do activities. Force yourself to smile until it becomes natural.
I'm rambling a bit, but this is what I got.
I've been on antis for either 21 or 22 years now. There have been a few times that I pulled myself off of them, but the last time in 2013, went so poorly (my alcoholism and porn addiction exploded, got arrested, did time...there's a whole website and book about it if you're interested) that'll I'll never make that mistake again. I actually stopped smoking weed in my early 20s when I got on the pills. I just didn't need it anymore because the pills kept me regulated. The cocktail has changed over the years as my symptoms have changed or they lost effectiveness, but I honestly believe the meds are what have kept me on mostly even ground.
Most doctors will tell you that people want to pull themselves off the meds and I was no different. They start to make you feel normal, so you start to confuse being normal with being medicated. It's a dangerous leap to take.
My doctor summed it up very well to me recently. He said that I'm taking pills for a physical condition that manifests itself with mental health symptoms. If my chemicals were in order, I wouldn't need the pills, but they aren't, so I take them to keep the balance.
I know I'll be taking them the rest of my life and I've come to complete peace with it.
I want to take antidepressants because they suppress my sexual urges and desires.
I am trying to my level best to stay healthy. I always sleep on time, I work 5 days a week and do meditation daily.
There's nothing wrong with taking antidepressants. As you rightly said, if our neurochemistry was fine, then we wouldn't need to take antidepressants.
I was very hesitant on taking the antidepressants this year. But I had extreme panic attacks and anxiety.
Once I started taking them, I am now 100% okay. And I want to keep taking the antidepressants so I never O again and secondly I never fall back into the anxiety and depression again
Hi Mate, what's the book or website where you have posted your story?
Im already at peace with taking antidepressants for the rest of my life because I know I'll never suffer anxiety or depression that way.
Well @auzzie_mikey you're a human being, and anxiety and depression are part of the deal, with or without meds. If you have to go in front of a group of 2,000 and speak, or you're going skydiving, a level of anxiety is perfectly normal. The effectiveness of meds will also change over time as you change. Don't see it as an end-all/be-all. See it is a vital part of keeping you level, but it's a balance you have to constantly keep monitored. As for my website, you can check it out at RecoveringPornAddict.com
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