Discussion in 'Pornography Addiction' started by auzzie_mikey, Aug 21, 2019.
Hey just curious has anyone taken antidepressants for their entire life or for more than 10 years?
Nah, but are you at that point in your life? I can still provide insight.
Nope but I've been on antidepressants for 5 months and I think I will be taking them for the rest of my life.
I was on and off antis for about 3-4 years. It was never consistent but I can tell you that I didn't like relying on them. I think the key to beating depression is discipline and the will to stubbornly push forward even if you're sucking at a task.
Alright, so when I took antis, I developed a mental dependency -- like I couldn't be anything without them. I actually still feel this way low-key. The first time I took them about 8 years ago, I didn't think they would work but then one day I woke up with clarity, motivation and a focus like I had never known...ever. I felt so focused and felt like I actually had the capacity to retain knowledge and I no longer felt dumb. I felt brilliant and attractive -- it was during that period of about 2 months that I actually realized I'm a handsome guy.
However, I stopped taking them when I started smoking weed and (even took them when I was smoking for a while) and I got back to being depressed. I think that nofap, and not busting is integral to overcoming depression but you must retain. I believe anti-depressants are a bit of a cheatcode but nofap/retention is the act of playing out the game to get the reward...to an extent. Don't just retain, start living ie: work, get outside; do activities. Force yourself to smile until it becomes natural.
I'm rambling a bit, but this is what I got.
I've been on antis for either 21 or 22 years now. There have been a few times that I pulled myself off of them, but the last time in 2013, went so poorly (my alcoholism and porn addiction exploded, got arrested, did time...there's a whole website and book about it if you're interested) that'll I'll never make that mistake again. I actually stopped smoking weed in my early 20s when I got on the pills. I just didn't need it anymore because the pills kept me regulated. The cocktail has changed over the years as my symptoms have changed or they lost effectiveness, but I honestly believe the meds are what have kept me on mostly even ground.
Most doctors will tell you that people want to pull themselves off the meds and I was no different. They start to make you feel normal, so you start to confuse being normal with being medicated. It's a dangerous leap to take.
My doctor summed it up very well to me recently. He said that I'm taking pills for a physical condition that manifests itself with mental health symptoms. If my chemicals were in order, I wouldn't need the pills, but they aren't, so I take them to keep the balance.
I know I'll be taking them the rest of my life and I've come to complete peace with it.
I want to take antidepressants because they suppress my sexual urges and desires.
I am trying to my level best to stay healthy. I always sleep on time, I work 5 days a week and do meditation daily.
There's nothing wrong with taking antidepressants. As you rightly said, if our neurochemistry was fine, then we wouldn't need to take antidepressants.
I was very hesitant on taking the antidepressants this year. But I had extreme panic attacks and anxiety.
Once I started taking them, I am now 100% okay. And I want to keep taking the antidepressants so I never O again and secondly I never fall back into the anxiety and depression again
Hi Mate, what's the book or website where you have posted your story?
Im already at peace with taking antidepressants for the rest of my life because I know I'll never suffer anxiety or depression that way.
Well @auzzie_mikey you're a human being, and anxiety and depression are part of the deal, with or without meds. If you have to go in front of a group of 2,000 and speak, or you're going skydiving, a level of anxiety is perfectly normal. The effectiveness of meds will also change over time as you change. Don't see it as an end-all/be-all. See it is a vital part of keeping you level, but it's a balance you have to constantly keep monitored. As for my website, you can check it out at RecoveringPornAddict.com
Yes, I have been taking SSRI type anti-depressants continuously for over 20 years, also augmented with Wellbutrin for about half of those. Ostensibly I take the SSRI for depression, but what they really do for me is without them I am hyper-sensitive to the world and my own thoughts and I tend to go into these rages. I never, ever act out on them, but I have had total strangers ask me if I am ok because they have seen me shaking and jerking because in my head and body I am raging. Without the Wellbutrin I do notice my depression gets worse as well.
I expect to be on them the rest of my life and really have no problem with it. The body is an organic machine and machines break down and have troubles. If you have a bum pancreas they give you something for that. If you have a bum brain they give you something for that. And the brain is infinitely more complex than any of the other organs we happily take medication for.
Thanks for your reply. And over the 20 years of taking the ssris, has the ssris kept your sexual urges and libido always low?
Whenever you took the antidepressants, did you always have lowered sexual libido and urges?
Not really. In the beginning the problem was more affecting performance than libido. After a time taking them most all the side effects will go away including low libido so I wouldn't count on them for suppressing all desire. In fact I once new a girl online who was convinced she was asexual and not interested in men until she started on anti-depressants, and realized it was just her depression affecting her so you might actually have the opposite reaction to what you want.
Yes. I had no sex-drive on Zoloft. On Wellbutrin, that was an entirely different story however!
So yeah...sure, Wellbutrin gave me a sex-drive but on Zoloft was when I was the most happy. Everything just seemed to make sense when I was on Zoloft. I was smarter, more alert -- and my body did what my mind wanted it to. 'Twas a strange experience. However, it also (in)directly led to some awkward moments with the opposite sex. I charmed the fuck out of this one girl and within less than 2 hours she wanted to have sex with me; however...I was dead down there. So thoroughly dead down there, that I had to find a way to get out of the room due to embarrassment. Also happened with another girl not too long after -- after a few minutes of just talking to her, she brought me to her room and wanted to have sex as well, but...I was still dead down there LOL
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