HARD MODE journey

Discussion in 'Ages 25-29' started by Faysal, Jul 24, 2020.

  1. Faysal

    Faysal New Member

    Hi, I know there are a lot of the same subject here but IT'S SO HARD TO DO IT ALONE! Please forgive me, to make it simple I want to start 77 days (I like number 7) reposting everyday WHAT NOT TO DO with some motivation line maybe to keep me going:

    - Watching human porn all different kind ... short, long story ... etc.

    - Watching manhwa porn.

    - Watching any Ecchi anime or manga.

    - Thinking any sexy thoughts before bed or all time.

    - Following or watching any accounts sexy posts all apps.

    - Eating bad food and not doing healthy exercises.

    - Sleep after 10 pm

    - Play video games all device types (except phone games apps)

    - Finally masturbating all kind.



    "I have to write this line everyday not copy paste! to remember why I have to do this cuz if by any chance I do one from the list just one ... ONE TIME IS ENOUGH to reactive my brain nerve cells that connected to vid porn and I want them dead for good not alive!! or all my HARD WORK WILL GONE!!! and I will have NUMP PENIS AGAIN.

    ……

    STORY

    I already have tried this method before 3 years ago

    .. I stopped playing video games and watching porn and masturbating for 11 month it was hard but the most keys to this are in the list above … I continued the fantasy thoughts sometimes ..

    the last three moths I started to feel nothing about women NO DESIRE NO LIBIDO it was tariffing me so much I thought that I will loss my advantage as a male I will not get married or have any relationship with women so I thought because I'm not release my semen now my body will loss the ability to do that in the future!

    so the last month I started to watch manhwa porn and sometime porn everyday without masturbating just watching and yeah it makes me hard for 2-3 hours and thinking before sleep sexy and dirty thoughts everyday …

    the first collapse I was dealing with really stressed matter with my family … while taking shower I tried to only do some touch ( no porn vid just my thoughts) … and it just happened … it was so bad masturbating didn’t feel good and so quick …

    after that I collapse for real with all porn vids kinds … after few months of searching I have found someone speaking about maybe yoga will do the fix .. so I tried it for a while but no real results then I found someone speaking about u have to fix ur body poster so I looked to my body with some test and yeah I had an anterior pelvic tilt (I think that’s why I only had 3 wet dreams only when I stopped for 11 months) and my right leg duck feet and forward head … I tried the last year to fix them all and yes I succeed with all except for the duck feet still trying ( I started to get morning wood for the first time in a long time .. years maybe …

    but I never stopped masturbating cuz I thought that will make it worse!

    ( cuz I already done the stop but when I think about it now if I only fix my pelvic tilt and continue not doing any bad hobbies and be patience when I got the "no libido thing' until it get over it will work for good!!! But its okay I know that now so I will start over)

    I hope it work now I will try my best not only stopping fap but changing my life style too thanks for reading I hope all of u get better.
     
  2. Faysal

    Faysal New Member

    Watching human porn all different kind ... short, long story ... etc.


    - Watching manhwa porn.


    - Watching any Ecchi anime or manga.


    - Thinking any sexy thoughts before bed or all time.


    - Following or watching any accounts sexy posts all apps.


    - Eating bad food and not doing healthy exercises.


    - Sleep after 10 pm


    - Play video games all device types (except phone games apps)


    - Finally masturbating all kind.




    "I have to read the list then write this line everyday not copy paste! to remember why I have to do this cuz if by any chance I do one from the list just one ... ONE TIME IS ENOUGH to reactive my brain nerve cells that connected to vid porn and I want them dead for good not alive!! or all my HARD WORK WILL GONE!!! and I will have NUMP PENIS AGAIN”


    I have to read the list then write this line every day not copying pasting.. to remember why i have to do this cuzzzz iff by any chance i do one from the list only just one .. one is enough to reactivate my brain nerve cells that connects to video porn and i want them dead for good not alive .. or all my hard work will gone! And i will have nump pines again.


    ........

    Second day nothing to much no need for motivation but i had just wanted to start sexy thoughts then I remember my of promise to stop.. and that only the second day!! .. god please help me.
     
  3. Faysal

    Faysal New Member

    Day 3 :

    Still nothing, I have some problem I want to exercise and every where I look to learn some exercises there are sexy women and thats doesn’t do anything to me right now but in the future I want to reboot my self really good that any sexy women will make my body react.. but I cannot do that while I’m still seeing them every where!



    READ THE LIST!!!!!!!

    Skip this it’s reposted everyday to remind myself :

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    Watching human porn all different kind ... short, long story ... etc.


    - Watching manhwa porn.


    - Watching any Ecchi anime or manga.


    - Thinking any sexy thoughts before bed or all time.


    - Following or watching any accounts sexy posts all apps.


    - Eating bad food and not doing healthy exercises.


    - Sleep after 10 pm


    - Play video games all device types (except phone games apps)


    - Finally masturbating all kind.




    "I have to read the list then write this line everyday not copy paste! to remember why I have to do this cuz if by any chance I do one from the list just one ... ONE TIME IS ENOUGH to reactive my BIG size brain nerve cells that growing and connected to porn and connected to my hand feeling masturbating and i want them dead for good not alive!! or all my HARD WORK WILL GONE!!! and I will have NUMP PENIS AGAIN”


    I have to read the list then write this line every day not copy paste to remember why i have to do this cuz if by any chance i do one from the list ..... one time is enough to reactivate my big size brain nerve cells that growing and connected to porn and connected to my hand feeling masturbating and i want them dead not alive or all my hard work will gone and i will have nump penis again.

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  4. Faysal

    Faysal New Member

    Day 4 :

    I almost tried to think sexy thoughts but I stopped myself immediately and after that I touched it little to move it to other side it got hard for a few minutes .. that was fast recovery i hope I pass the death bed time



    READ THE LIST!!!!!!!

    Skip this it’s reposted everyday to remind myself :

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    Watching human porn all different kind ... short, long story ... etc.


    - Watching manhwa porn.


    - Watching any Ecchi anime or manga.


    - Thinking any sexy thoughts before bed or all time.


    - Following or watching any accounts sexy posts all apps.


    - Eating bad food and not doing healthy exercises.


    - Sleep after 10 pm


    - Play video games all device types (except phone games apps)


    - Finally masturbating all kind.




    "I have to read the list then write this line everyday not copy paste! to remember why I have to do this cuz if by any chance I do one from the list just one ... ONE TIME IS ENOUGH to reactive my BIG size brain nerve cells that growing and connected to porn and connected to my hand feeling masturbating and i want them dead for good not alive!! or all my HARD WORK WILL GONE!!! and I will have NUMP PENIS AGAIN”


    I have to read the list then write this line every day not copy paste to remember why I have to do this cuz by any chance i do one from the list jjust one one is enough to reactivate my big size brain nerve cells that growing and connected to porn and connected to my hand feeling masturbating and i want them dead not alive for good or all my hard work will be gone and i will have nump pines again..


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  5. Faysal

    Faysal New Member

    Day 5 :

    Nothing much I’m just so happy today I’m reading this book “your brain on porn” and in page 115 there is a story about a man have done the “reboot” saying you thought this will never be fixed and you will be like this forever even after you get married but that not true your brain will react to your women give it a time and you will experience the most enjoyable moments in your life with her” ... I’m really so happy I really thought for years that maybe I will be like this forever it got me and everything became colorless.. even food doesn’t taste that good anymore i ate cuz i have too i used to enjoy food and other things ...



    READ THE LIST!!!!!!!

    Skip this it’s reposted everyday to remind myself :

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    Watching human porn all different kind ... short, long story ... etc.


    - Watching manhwa porn.


    - Watching any Ecchi anime or manga.


    - Thinking any sexy thoughts before bed or all time.


    - Following or watching any accounts sexy posts all apps.


    - Eating bad food and not doing healthy exercises.


    - Sleep after 10 pm


    - Play video games all device types (except phone games apps)


    - Finally masturbating all kind.




    "I have to read the list then write this line everyday not copy paste! And UNDERSTAND the word and REMEMBER!! why I have to do this cuz if by any chance I do one from the list just one ... ONE TIME IS ENOUGH to reactive my BIG size brain nerve cells that growing and connected to porn and connected to my hand feeling masturbating and i want them dead for good not alive!! or all my HARD WORK WILL GONE!!! and I will have NUMP PENIS AGAIN”


    I have to read the list then it really important to UNDERSTAND!!! What i write every day cuz if I only write without thinking of the word i will forget what is really important to me and not copy paste to remember why i have to do this cuz if by any chance i do one from the list just one .. one time is enough to reactivate my big size brain nerve cells that growing and connected to porn and connected to my hand feeling masturbating and i want them dead for good not alive! Or all my hard work will gone and i will have nump penis again.


    Ps: I almost forgot what important and when I write the line I remembered it’s only the 5 day!! God be with me please


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  6. Faysal

    Faysal New Member

    Day 6:

    Still nothing to much I still feel good and I don’t think about porn at all my life is way better then ever I feel so satisfied with my life and I feel warmth in every aspect of my body and everything.. I hope my good days continue to last years.. just thankful for everything.



    READ THE LIST!!!!!!!

    Skip this it’s reposted everyday to remind myself :

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    Watching human porn all different kind ... short, long story ... etc.


    - Watching manhwa porn.


    - Watching any Ecchi anime or manga.


    - Thinking any sexy thoughts before bed or all time.


    - Following or watching any accounts sexy posts all apps.


    - Eating bad food and not doing healthy exercises.


    - Sleep after 10 pm


    - Play video games all device types (except phone games apps)


    - Finally masturbating all kind.




    "I have to read the list then write this line everyday not copy paste and not auto iPhone correct ! And UNDERSTAND the words and REMEMBER!! why I have to do this cuz if by any chance I do one from the list just one ... ONE TIME IS ENOUGH to reactive my BIG size brain nerve cells that growing and connected to porn and connected to my hand feeling masturbating and i want them dead for good not alive!! or all my HARD WORK WILL GONE!!! and I will have NUMB PENIS AGAIN”


    I have to read the list then write this line everyday not copy paste and understand the words and remember why I have to do this cuz if by any chance i do one from the list just one .. one time is enough to reactivate my big size brain nerve cells that growing and connected to porn and connected to my hand feeling masturbating and i want them dead not alive or all my hard work will gone and i will have numb penis again

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  7. You can do it, man. Reminding yourself of your goals and what to avoid daily is a good idea. I sincerely hope you continue to find success on your journey, and I'm sure I speak for all of us here when I say that we're rooting for you, friend.

    Stay strong.
     
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  8. Faysal

    Faysal New Member

    thank u, it’s really hard the first few weeks so that’s why I’m doing this after this it will be easier, before all this I didn’t knew about rebooting or anything else and i knew i had a problem so I tried some experience on my own self so i stopped gaming and masturbating and it worked so good first 2 months then i started to check it if it can be hard and I started to think sexy thoughts (I didn’t knew I thought i only have to keep away from masturbating) .. even with not knowing i have done it streak 11 months no masturbating I hope this time will be for ever, thanks again it’s mean al lot.

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    Day 7 :

    Today was a bit weird cuz I stopped my daily walk and I couldn’t done any exercises cuz I’m fasting it’s special day and i have to go to work afternoon sitting all day so it’s a weird day for me i have been doing so much activity lately just make my day full of things and no place to think about any thing from the list .. I have to prepare for days like this so that I don’t have free time and not knowing what to do .. u all know what free time between 4 walls mean.



    READ THE LIST!!!!!!!

    Skip this it’s reposted everyday to remind myself :

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    Watching human porn all different kind ... short, long story ... etc.


    - Watching manhwa porn.


    - Watching any Ecchi anime or manga.


    - Thinking any sexy thoughts before bed or all time.


    - Following or watching any accounts sexy posts all apps.


    - Eating bad food and not doing healthy exercises.


    - Sleep after 10 pm


    - Play video games all device types (except phone games apps)


    - Finally masturbating all kind.




    "I have to read the list then write this line everyday not copy paste and not auto iPhone correct ! And UNDERSTAND the words and REMEMBER!! why I have to do this cuz if by any chance I do one from the list just one ... ONE TIME IS ENOUGH to reactive my BIG size brain nerve cells that growing and connected to porn and connected to my hand feeling masturbating and i want them dead for good not alive!! or all my HARD WORK WILL GONE!!! and I will have NUMB PENIS AGAIN”


    I have to read the list then write this line every day not copy past and not auto iPhone correct! And understand the words and remember why i have to do this cuz if by any chance i do one from the list just one one is enough to reactive my big size brain nerve cells that growing and connected to my hand feeling masturbating and i want them dead for good not alive or all my hard work will gone and i will have numb pines again

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  9. Faysal

    Faysal New Member

    Day 17 :

    I have decided that I will repost every two weeks or more so that I don’t focus on this and i live my life a normal way without reposting daily same thing with my meditation I’m doing it with an app after few weeks I will do it without it and continue living my life without these things cuz they are only for the start and u should not depend on them.



    READ THE LIST!!!!!!!

    Skip this it’s reposted every time to remind myself :

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    Watching human porn all different kind ... short, long story ... etc.


    - Watching manhwa porn.


    - Watching any Ecchi anime or manga.


    - Thinking any sexy thoughts before bed or all time.


    - Following or watching any accounts sexy posts all apps.


    - Eating bad food and not doing healthy exercises.


    - Sleep after 10 pm


    - Play video games all device types (except phone games apps)


    - Finally masturbating all kind.




    "I have to read the list then write this line every time not copy paste and not auto iPhone correct ! And UNDERSTAND the words and REMEMBER!! why I have to do this cuz if by any chance I do one from the list just one ... ONE TIME IS ENOUGH to reactive my BIG size brain nerve cells that growing and connected to porn and connected to my hand feeling masturbating and i want them dead for good not alive!! or all my HARD WORK WILL GONE!!! and I will have NUMB PENIS AGAIN”

    I have to read the list then write this line every time not copy paste and not auto iphone correct and understand the words and remember why i have to do this cuz if by any chance i do one from the list just one one time is enough to reactivate my big size brain nerve cells that growing and connected to porn and connected to my hand feeling masturbating and i want them dead for food not alive or all my hard work will gone and i will have numb penis again

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    Last edited: Aug 19, 2020
  10. Faysal

    Faysal New Member

    Day 28 :

    I’m here cuz few seconds ago just almost my brain tried to remember i pornography manhwa scene and it shocked me I wanted to remember so bad then i forced my self to stop and here i am to remember why i have to stay away from this.


    READ THE LIST!!!!!!!

    Skip this it’s reposted every time to remind myself :

    —————————————————————————

    Watching human porn all different kind ... short, long story ... etc.


    - Watching manhwa porn.


    - Watching any Ecchi anime or manga.


    - Thinking any sexy thoughts before bed or all time.


    - Following or watching any accounts sexy posts all apps.


    - Eating bad food and not doing healthy exercises.


    - Sleep after 10 pm


    - Play video games all device types (except phone games apps)


    - Finally masturbating all kind.




    "I have to read the list then write this line every time not copy paste and not auto iPhone correct ! And UNDERSTAND the words and REMEMBER!! why I have to do this cuz if by any chance I do one from the list just one ... ONE TIME IS ENOUGH to reactivate my BIG size brain nerve cells that growing and connected to porn and connected to my hand feeling masturbating and i want them dead for good not alive!! or all my HARD WORK WILL GONE!!! and I will have NUMB PENIS AGAIN”


    I have to read the list then write this line every time not copy paste and not auto iPhone correct.. and understand the words and remember why i have to do this cuz id by any chance i do one from the list jussst one .. one time is enough to reactivate my big size brain nerve cells that growing and connnected to to porn and connected to my hand feeling masturbating amd i want them dead for good not alive or all my hard work will be gone and i will have numb penis again

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  11. Faysal

    Faysal New Member

    Day 32 :

    I feel so angry those days I can’t stop thinking I can’t sleep well struggling all the time with anything.. and maybe the main reason is because I’m having a Big decision to make and it will make a lot of my relatives sad especially my Mom .. the weird part is before two days i had a wet dream and I knew I’m dreaming that time and I continued what i have doing in the dream (nothing weird normal sex only that there was 2 women and it goes so fast like i was some charming man with a top experience i could stop but at the dream I didn’t know way I continued) after that I woke up and I felt normal not like what u usually feel after masturbating but a few hours later my body energy feels weird I don’t have the same as before (those past weeks) next day I dreamed I’m on the pc searching some porn I didn’t see the porn but I felt something wrong then I woke up.. .. my mental state is falling apart not knowing what to do with my big decision .. and the saddest part I’m so Mad at all people especially the closest one like mom and dad and some of my brothers and sisters I feel like some of them approaching me to take advantage of my bad mental brain especially Dad he is talking about some business plans and need my money or my signature to a bank, i already have done the same to my brother he was pushing me all the past years to pay a house together but I don’t want to take big loans and i don’t want to live with him cuz he is so bossy so he was pushing my mom to push me do it i was saying No but something happened last year made my mental state falling down so at that time he knew I’m having some issues with my life it was so obvious even my face and skin all was in a really bad state so i sad to myself f*ck it I don’t care about anything thing anymore so i got a huge loan and i gave it to him (i have done the same to my dad years ago he was asking if I could help him with his loans and after I gave him he spend it all and the loans continued)

    My brother paid the house and said i will help you with your house in the future but recently i had some issues paying something to someone and it’s important i was thinking I will do it in the next 1-2 months but my brother knows my issues so he came and said i will help you I said okey if then after he gave me almost 3% of what i have given him to buy the house so I thought it’s only to help me with my case right now .. then he said i oh i feel relax now i can now buy what ever i want with No pressure.. I told him what pressure? He said i helped you now i feel okey to my plans with the money i got from doing business with the house I paid.. i didn’t say anything i was shocked (just now I felt super angry and I hit every thing around me) .. I don’t know why I’m writing this but maybe this is connected to my main issues with no fap .. I hope things get better tomorrow.
     
  12. Faysal

    Faysal New Member

    Day 45 :

    I’m losing my mind.. is this normal? I can’t stopped thinking bad thoughts about everything and everyone close to me .. i have literally f*cked up I don’t know if I deserve to live anymore more everything is missed up.. I’m almost losing myself I really hope this is a normal thing in this situation and it’s only a short time to pass.
     
  13. Faysal

    Faysal New Member

    Day 54 :

    This is bad I still feel angry all the time it didn’t go away yet and i just saw some pron by accident and I continued watching i brain stopped thinking just confused about this and why i should stop? It’s okey you can watch a little then I forced my self to stop and here i am to remind my self why I should stop!!!



    READ THE LIST!!!!!!!

    Skip this it’s reposted every time to remind myself :

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    Watching human porn all different kind ... short, long story ... etc.


    - Watching manhwa porn.


    - Watching any Ecchi anime or manga.


    - Thinking any sexy thoughts before bed or all time.


    - Following or watching any accounts sexy posts all apps.


    - Eating bad food and not doing healthy exercises.


    - Sleep after 10 pm


    - Play video games all device types (except phone games apps)


    - Finally masturbating all kind.




    "I have to read the list then write this line every time not copy paste and not auto iPhone correct ! And UNDERSTAND the words and REMEMBER!! why I have to do this cuz if by any chance I do one from the list just one ... ONE TIME IS ENOUGH to reactivate my BIG size brain nerve cells that growing and connected to porn and connected to my hand feeling masturbating and i want them dead for good not alive!! or all my HARD WORK WILL GONE!!! and I will have NUMB PENIS AGAIN”

    I have to read the list then write this line every time not copy paste and not auto iphone correct and understand the words and remember why i have to do this cuz if by any chance i do one from the list just one ....... one time is enough to reactivate my big size brain nerve cells that growing and connected to porn and connected to my hand feeling masturbating and i want them dead not alive or all my hard work will gone and i will have numb penis again!!!!!!

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    The good thing i had 4 wet dreams this month it’s a good thing to know that my body capable to release some in a healthy way .. last time I stopped for more then 6 months i had only few wet dreams .. i hope I’m doing it right this time.
     
  14. Faysal

    Faysal New Member

    Day 59 :

    I have failed all the time of sleeping before 10 cuz of my work time.. still every thing else is okey.. but today I’m thinking of buying a new gaming pc .. idk .. should I wait until my brain okey? Cuz i will see some photos in the games and the reboot I’m doing is to make my brain only work on real women nothing else .. I kind of like anime and with time I start to see the girls in the animated sexy thats replaced the real one in my brain and my brain don’t know which one is the right for me it just want one lol, it’s okey to do those stuff for a little time but if u do it a lot there will be damage and the real woman want be effective for my brain that’s why i need to reboot first then i can play a little time in the day, and for now I’m having a problem, i saw i vid for a sexy girl doing a sexy thing and it stocked in my head I don’t want to imagine it my body is reacting so hard for it damn!!! Im only in my second month let the dead bed time come quickly!!


    READ THE LIST!!!!!!!

    Skip this it’s reposted every time to remind myself :

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    Watching human porn all different kind ... short, long story ... etc.


    - Watching manhwa porn.


    - Watching any Ecchi anime or manga.


    - Thinking any sexy thoughts before bed or all time.


    - Following or watching any accounts sexy posts all apps.


    - Eating bad food and not doing healthy exercises.


    - Sleep after 10 pm


    - Play video games all device types (except phone games apps)


    - Finally masturbating all kind.




    "I have to read the list then write this line every time not copy paste and not auto iPhone correct ! And UNDERSTAND the words and REMEMBER!! why I have to do this cuz if by any chance I do one from the list just one ... ONE TIME IS ENOUGH to reactivate my BIG size brain nerve cells that growing and connected to porn and connected to my hand feeling masturbating and i want them dead for good not alive!! or all my HARD WORK WILL GONE!!! and I will have NUMB PENIS AGAIN”

    I have to read the list then write this line every time not coby paste and not auto iPhone correct and understand the words and remember why i have to do this cuz if by any chance i do one from the list just one one time is enough to reactivate my big size brain nerve cells that growing and connected to porn and connected to my hand feeling masturbating and i want them dead for good not alive or all my hard work will gone and i will have numb penis again

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  15. Faysal

    Faysal New Member

    Day 93 :

    I .. I think .. I think I’m in the death bed period !!

    I didn’t have anyyyyyyy wet dreams lately at all it have been over 2 months already! Every dream i was in almost haven sex or anything i weirdly lost interest!! My dick goes dead immediately after few seconds and weirdly I’m not in the mood at all ! Nothing comes in mind.. same happened to me last experience i had 2 years ago but that time i was doing it wrong every thing i was imagining a lot sexy ideas and watching some anime porn so this time is deferent in all aspects.. but this death bed period I don’t know how to deal with it .. today the the third time in rows I’m almost jerked off in the path .. because i have new information about how it’s okey to masturbate without thinking anything just touching ur self but the thing is every time I touch my self it’s like everything is dead and yeah I feel the orgasm but I stop before it .. I’m going crazy this is why i have to repost to remind my self.. I’m not sure if what I’m doing is wrong or right but I think if it doesn’t helped me it won’t harm me.. plus if this continued without any wet dreams i will jerk off i have put a line after 3 months i will do it but before that No! I really like the energy that I’m having right now it’s amazing I never felt like that in my whole life so No to jerking off and yes for a healthy life with a real female!



    READ THE LIST!!!!!!!

    Skip this it’s reposted every time to remind myself :

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    Watching human porn all different kind ... short, long story ... etc.


    - Watching manhwa porn.


    - Watching any Ecchi anime or manga.


    - Thinking any sexy thoughts before bed or all time.


    - Following or watching any accounts sexy posts all apps.


    - Eating bad food and not doing healthy exercises.


    - Sleep after 10 pm


    - Play video games all device types (except phone games apps)


    - Finally masturbating all kind.




    "I have to read the list then write this line every time not copy paste and not auto iPhone correct ! And UNDERSTAND the words and REMEMBER!! why I have to do this cuz if by any chance I do one from the list just one ... ONE TIME IS ENOUGH to reactivate my BIG size brain nerve cells that growing and connected to porn and connected to my hand feeling masturbating and i want them dead for good not alive!! or all my HARD WORK WILL GONE!!! and I will have NUMB PENIS AGAIN”

    I have to read the list then write this line every time not copy paste and not auto iphone correct and undersatnd the words and remember why i have to do this cuz if by any chance i do one from the list just one one time is enough to reactivate my big size brain nerve cells that growing and connected to porn and connected to my hand feeling masturbating and i want them dead for good not alive orrrrrr allllllll my hard workkk will gone and ....... i will have numb penis again.

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  16. Faysal

    Faysal New Member

    Day 99 :

    Ok i have to mention that last post i had a problem with my wet dreams actually in the same day of the post i had a wet dream finally sadly it’s not a normal sex yet I haven’t had any wet dream with a normal sex but never give up.. the thing is this time is my imagination .. it’s going a bit too much.. I usually when i have any sexy thoughts I stop immediately but the day i had a wet dream before going to sleep i had a level 1 sex thoughts nothing serious but it got me hard for a have a hour so that’s maybe one of the reasons why i had a wet dream that night.. but it didn’t stop! yesterday before sleep for no reasons my head started to imagine some sexy thoughts and I didn’t stop immediately i let it continue!! For like 15 minutes then i forced my self to stop by hitting my head a little slaps lol just to make sure i have to stop this is a serious matter I’m going to lose everything I worked so hard for .. and to today in the morning to i had a nap before the nap i had some sexy thoughts and all of them made me hard for 10 minutes maybe i forced my self.. and jusr before writing this i was driving to the coffee to continue my work but while driving I started a dirty thoughts so I forced myself to stop and here i am writing this cuz the way this thing going scares me and i have to stop doing it by remembering why i have to stop!


    (Ps to me : please don’t try to touch yourself while taking a bath to test the body just do bath real quick and go)


    READ THE LIST!!!!!!!

    Skip this it’s reposted every time to remind myself :

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    Watching human porn all different kind ... short, long story ... etc.


    - Watching manhwa porn.

    (Yesterday I thought about some of those manhwa story line updates I’m sure they have released a lot of chapters by now but no thanks my brain this is over just let it gooooo)

    - Watching any Ecchi anime or manga.


    - Thinking any sexy thoughts before bed or all time.

    (This one is sooooooooo hard those days)


    - Following or watching any accounts sexy posts all apps.

    (I’m a bit lazy about this i start to watch and follow some profiles i had to delete them all at least for 6 months)


    - Eating bad food and not doing healthy exercises.

    Yay this one I’m doing great ⭐️


    - Sleep after 10 pm

    This one to ⭐️


    - Play video games all device types (except phone games apps)

    (I can’t play I tried to play last to weeks then my body started to stress a lot of muscles in the pelvic floor without any control of me I tried to relax while playing nothing works then I started to pee a lot with anxiety a lot so i have to stop temporarily until I know why i stress my muscles while playing?!)


    - Finally masturbating all kind.

    (This one doing almost great but I hope I don’t try any weird things while in the bath and the wet dreams continue or i have to schedule a time for a normal no thoughts no porn nothing at all jerking off to release my semen)



    "I have to read the list then write this line every time not copy paste and not auto iPhone correct ! And UNDERSTAND the words and REMEMBER!! why I have to do this cuz if by any chance I do one from the list just one ... ONE TIME IS ENOUGH to reactivate my BIG size brain nerve cells that growing and connected to porn and connected to my hand feeling masturbating and i want them dead for good not alive!! or all my HARD WORK WILL GONE!!! and I will have NUMB PENIS AGAIN”

    I have to read the list and write this line every time not copy patse nor auto correct and understand the words and remember why i have to do this cuz if by any chance i do one from the list just one .. one time is enough to reactive my big brain size nerves cells that growing and connected to PORN AND CONNECTED TO MY HAND feeling masterbite and i want them dead not alive or ALL MY HARD WORK WILL GONE!!!!! And i will .. have .. numb .. penis .. again!!!.

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