Hard Mode 90-day clean-up Journal

Discussion in 'Pornography Addiction' started by Clarkmr, Aug 30, 2018.

  1. Clarkmr

    Clarkmr Member

    Going to MFA today! My brain feels better, and though I’m in an Italian-college-bro-in-sweats-minfield, I’m doing better at being a normal decent human being today. I feel more in control. Time to go check out some monet!
     
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  2. WilliamOneAndDone

    WilliamOneAndDone Active Member

    Still here, still with you, still following, still urging you onward, still grateful you are being an example to everyone here that with effort you take off the chains.

    Much love.

    Will I AM.
     
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  3. Clarkmr

    Clarkmr Member

    Just checking in. Mad brain fog , but doing well and feeling positive. Thinking about leading three consecutive challenges on here starting on 12/1. A 30 day hard mode, a 60 day , and then a 90. Insane? Maybe. But I feel strengthened in my faith by this. However , my soon-to-be boyfriend may not be happy about that. Idk yet
     
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  4. Clarkmr

    Clarkmr Member

    This is the shit that pops up on my facebook feed on a daily basis. I don't even know what I'm going to do --- I might just get rid of my facebook. I know none of you are gay, obviously, but this is brutally triggering for me.

    What do you guys do when you see pictures of females? do you even get them? WHY IS MY COMPUTER LISTENING TO ME AND SPAMMING ME WITH THIS.
     

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  5. CJJackson

    CJJackson Active Member

    Definitely triggering at times when you see girls in bikinis or whatever but I’ve developed a mindset that it’s just not worth it lol
     
  6. Clarkmr

    Clarkmr Member

    Definitely a good mindset, and it’s one I share as well. I never think of looking at porn —- those days are gone —- but it just gets me all brainfogged . Annoying AF.
     
  7. WilliamOneAndDone

    WilliamOneAndDone Active Member

    Checking in. If I had anything insightful to say, I would. I don't. I think you are in charge of you. I hope you keep posting. You are teaching others how to do it.
     
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  8. CJJackson

    CJJackson Active Member

    Hope everyone has a good holiday cheers to ending this year on a good note and starting a new year with optimism!
     
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  9. Clarkmr

    Clarkmr Member

    It was a fantastic holiday. Thanks!
     
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  10. WilliamOneAndDone

    WilliamOneAndDone Active Member

    You are close to 90. Just a few more days.
     
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  11. WilliamOneAndDone

    WilliamOneAndDone Active Member

    @Clarkmr

    Bro, I count today as 90. Thanks for proving a point and inspiring everyone here.
     
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  12. Clarkmr

    Clarkmr Member

    Me too! Thanks for chiming in and providing inspiration.

    What a walk that was! Not nearly as bad as I expected, but I have been extremely sexually frustrated lol. I think I’m blessed because I already broke my porn dependency, so this was a logical and somewhat easier next step.
     
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  13. Pete McVries

    Pete McVries Active Member

    Congratulations :)
     
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  14. CJJackson

    CJJackson Active Member

    Congrats grateful for all 3 of you and the support. I’ll be getting my 90 soon enough!
     
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  15. Clarkmr

    Clarkmr Member

    Now if I could stop dreaming about porn every time I’m stressed...good heavens. Had a bad one last night.
     
  16. WilliamOneAndDone

    WilliamOneAndDone Active Member

    It never completely goes away because that is the way nature wants it. Turns out that rewarding sexual thoughts with a dopamine hit, which we interpret as pleasure, is a great way to encourage reproduction in the species. Of course, humans have figured out how to use that recreationally, via recreational sex, and, more recently, porn. Congrats again. I hope you keep posting in the forums.

    Much love.

    Will I AM.
     
  17. Big Lebowski

    Big Lebowski Member

    Yeah I can attest to the fact that the dreams never really go away from my own experience. For me they do thin out but you could be 3-4 months without one and one night it will hit you. Doing well in any case mate, keep it up!
     
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