I’m 25 years old, I’ve watched porn since I was about 12/13. I had no idea the effect it would have on me. I remember one of the first times I forgot to delete my history on the family computer and my dad found it, all he said was ‘it’s normal to look at this stuff, just don’t tell your mother and remember to delete the history!’ so he obviously had no idea of the long term effects either. If I think about it I’ve been addicted since early on, in school I was never that interested in girls physically. I was quite happy going home and scrolling through porn, looking for the perfect clip. I didn’t lose my virginity until I was 19 and even that was when I was drunk and on cocaine. The more porn I watched the more sexual experiences in real life would make me anxious so I’d need to be hammered to pluck up the courage. Every sexual experience I’ve had I’ve been under the influence of something. My first experience of PIED was in May 2018, I’d gone out with a girl I was working with. She wasn’t drinking that night so she drove us, on the way home I suggested having sex in the back of her car. We went somewhere quiet and got in the back seat I did some stuff for her, then when she went to get on top I just shrank, then she tried to give me a bj and the same thing happened. I was absolutely gutted. But I knew it was down to too much porn and masturbation straight away. I’d been hammering the porn since the Christmas before where I got blown out by this girl I really liked. I knew I’d been watching too much and my erections were getting weaker, but I just thought when presented with a real woman who I cared about and was attracted to, I’d be fine. She was supportive when I explained and wanted to help but I pushed her away for fear of it happening again. We’re friends now but that’s all. Since then I’ve tried to reboot multiple times, most recently was my longest attempt, I relapsed at around 60 days. I’d been doing well but hadn’t noticed much improvement erection/libido wise. I got really ill at the beginning of March (pretty sure it was covid) and was in bed for a week straight, this is where I felt sorry for myself and relapsed. Now I’ve managed to get into a consistent reboot again, I’m trying not to count days this time but think I’m approaching around 3 weeks. My biggest concern is hard flaccid. I’ve definitely got it, penis feels firm/rubbery to touch my when flaccid, when I can get an erection or half a one, it feels hollow like there’s not much blood getting in. The problem is I worry about HF being permanent and if I worry enough I think there’s no point in continuing the reboot and then I relapse. I’ve struggled with this vicious cycle for a while. I almost relapsed today which is partly why I’m here, thankfully my porn blockers have saved me today. Thanks for reading, I have a couple questions below and would be really grateful if anyone can help me. What’s the best way to improve/get rid of HF? Have heard about stretching hip flexor/psoas and RK’s does this work? If there anyone out there who’s cured their HF, how long did it take you? Did it go away with abstaining from PMO or are other things required? Would be great to hear from other members of the community, thanks for hanging in!