Hey there, it's been a long time since i was around here. So in the past year or so many things have happened. Long story short, for months now, porn videos cause nothing on me, nothing at all. I just feel bored watching them. I've masturbated watching camgirls and the like for the past weeks, more softcore stuff, girls in bikini, etc... And right now not even that causes any effect on me. So, for the first time ever, i have a girlfriend, i have been dating her for 2 months and we made it official about 2 weeks ago. We have had a lot of intimacy in bed already but there was no penetration until yesterday, i was hard, not full hard sadly but hard anyway. I don't think i was nervous at all, probably related to my years and years of fapping at least one time each day. For the past few months i've been masturbating just a few times every week though, sometimes even only once a week. So, to the point of this post. There was penetration, and it felt weird, i did feel pleasure, not as much though, i can honestly say that i only felt very little pleasure, and it hurt at points. I know it is the first time, but i thought the first time hurting and not being enjoyable was just a girl thing. Or am i wrong? I really love her, the building up to that point was really intense, we took our time to get there, about 2 hours of foreplay, fingering, oral.. And it still ended up like that for me.