day 11 - I am going haywire!! There is a desire for me to orgasm. I did peek at escort ads and a little bit of porn. The temptation is there in full force. Its become difficult for me to function now. Its weighing on my head heavily. But...I am making a commitment to myself to not orgasm unless its with a real woman whose a non escort. This will entail me going out of my way to talk to women and risking rejection and harassment charges at my work. I know the latter is extremely unlikely. Heck I can make a harassment case against some women now. Like the girl who keeps walking by me with a giant smile on her face, back and forth multiple times a day. It makes me lose focus at work. But, she switched offices and came back one more time and my idiot self understood what she was doing much later. God i'm so stupid. But there are other girls. because of my horniness im desperate and thats a damn good thing. Before I was satisfying my sexuality with pmo. Now, im changing my habit to seek out real women. Man, its hard but it feels good to be on the right path now. Coming here is such a breath of fresh air!!! Its solace to me. One last thing. I am working on approaching women not just at nightclubs and bars but in my daily day to day.