H2O - journey continued into my 30's.

day 1 - wednesday night 11pm 5/24/23
speaking of the devil. I pmo'd. Cause: I brought my laptop to my bed before sleep and naturally watched porn.

My confidence Is gone!

I am never bringing my laptop up to my bed anymore ever no matter how horny I am.

 

day 1 - thusday night 7:26pm 5/25/23

 

day 6 -
Im happy. I went out last night and talked to 4 girls and only been rejected once. Yay!! Progress!!

 

day 1 - 11:51pm 5/29/23 monday

And just like that I get caught. Just Damn!!

 

Well done on 6 days no P and M.
Well done on talking to 4 girls.
Keep it up bro. You can do it.
Get another streak of 6 or more days.
Go out again and talk to more girls.
Progress comes from consistency.

 

day 1 - 9pm tuesday 5/30
back to back relapse. Fuck!! This is not good. When I was younger when I went 5 days cold turkey I would have power of the gods. But, now even in day 5/6 I feel sluggish. Damn this thing!!!

 

day 1 - 11:30pm thursday 6/1
relapse. I saw an escort today. I came home and jerked off to porn.

 

day 1 - 6/7/23 8pm

its absurd how much porn i watch. i actually think i have an active sex live because i pmo a lot to girls. And, I frequent escorts. Also, legacy feminism wherein women hate men and dont have any sexual desire for men seems to be how i think. I have to redirect that kind of thinking into what it really is. Women are sexual and love sexual energy and want sex and want attention, flirting, approaching and fun sex.