Ive been an active member in this forums a while back. Things did not get better since then but it got worse. And, the reason is simple. I am extremely shy, I think low of myself, ive been conditioned by culture and religion to abstain from women. A while back I was spending money on seeing women, 1 or 2 women a week and it helped me not even think of porn. I learned that the whole reason I have this addiction is because I don't do anything to get women. Dating apps are a dumpster fire especially in NYC where I live. Its a gigantic sausage party full of guys who use photoshop and other tools, and girls who are as vapid as they come. My silver linings are at: 1.). work 2.). Bars 3.) Clubs This girl thing is driving me nuts. More specifically my lack of confidence. I know that once I get that stroke of confidence I will end this addiction and be successful and happy in life. I just dont know what im doing. Im gonna continue here. This forum has been the most consistent.