Introduction I've been addicted to porn for most of my life. Just turned 30 recently, and I feel it's time to move on. I'm successful in most areas in my life, except with relationships with women (my longest relationship lasted 3 months). In that arena, I'm not self confident or sure of myself. Also, although I'm working my dream job, I feel that I'm capable of moving up within my company, but the lack of self confidence is a barrier there as well. My previous longest streak in recent memory is 15 days. (I may have had a 20 day streak around 10 years ago.) I also started thinking in terms of how many times I relapse a month, to help avoid binging, in which my lowest record is 9 times this last August. Porn Filters don't work for me My method to prevent myself from relapsing was to lock my computer down with porn filters, and hide the password from myself by writing it down on a piece of paper and leaving it at work. Unfortunately, I kept finding ways around it. I would get the faprage and find a loophole to get around the filter, or I would find a site that slipped through the filter. I also realised that it doesn't take much to get me going - I had to block Facebook, YouTube, and any swimsuit site. Everytime I would relapse, and then close the loophole. It escalated to the point where I had to COMPLETELY block the internet on my phone using the web filter, and leave my computer at work. This worked for a while, but made me a little bored on weekends because I didn't have my computer. And I would still find ways to relapse - taking the Xbox into my room for example. Then I found a clever way to crack the web filter on my phone - permanently so the loophole could not be closed. I gave up on filters because I can't get rid of my phone. I realized that by relying on filters I wasn't really addressing the problem. As soon as porn became available again, I would binge. I need to take the problem head-on. I've heard the advice that porn filters could help get me started, but I don't think that would work for me because I know the day I remove them I will relapse. My new method There is a point of no-return, and that's the moment I open up a porn site. I call it the event horizon - up until I reach that point, I can still back out, but once I pass it the I rarely get back. When I get to that point I am confronted with a decision. I know what the right thing to do is, but the lure of porn is so strong it sometimes overrides my higher judgement. Sometimes it gets so strong that the right thing to do seems to be to look at porn. You know there's all this advice on how to shut your thoughts off? Usually the advice is about how to get to sleep when your stressed out, and it usually recommends meditation. I would like to be able to "Turn Off" the urges when they come. I bought a meditation cushion recently, and have been attending group meditation sessions once a week, and I think I'm on the right track in this regard. If I could turn off the urges when they come, it will allow me to make the right decision. Hopefully one day, it won't even really be a decision but an obvious course of action. Instead of having a habit of looking at porn, I will have a habit of not looking at porn. On my longer streaks I did notice a problem - I was completely bored at times. To solve this problem I was thinking of making a weekly to-do list. On this list I would like to have items such as "Ask these people if they want to play a board game" or "Ask that girl out". I'm choosing activities that involve socializing because I'm already maxed out on personal fitness activities. Anyway, I'm going to be posting on here regularly, and I'm going to get one of those spreadsheets to keep track of my relapses. Wish me luck.