Grow some BALLS: The Rise of Man Manningston

Discussion in 'Ages 20-24' started by Apeman, Apr 10, 2013.

  1. JediMindTricks

    JediMindTricks 23 y/o with a mission!

    Watch out so that you don't get GIED (Google-Induced Erectile Dysfunction) ;D Imagine if you transfer all the associations your brain had from porn to searching at Google. Searching will never be safe again. I'm not serious btw, just had a weird idea.

    You gotta blast this in your car as you leave that old home behind :) Oh, and Thunder Road by Springsteen!
  2. Apeman

    Apeman It means you're a baboon... And I'm not

    @JediMindTricks Ha GIED! What a notion! And thanks for the song, it sums up my sentiments nicely!

    @davemustaine13 Cue extinction extinction indeed! I actually did a little of that this week! And yeah, the amount of pain possible with excess alcohol can really make you reevaluate shit.

    @Unwise It IS super risky. Even going into it with a plan, I've still almost crashed and burned...

    @baywalker I've got some college buds in the LBC, and I've never lived by a beach 8)

    @iHaveSeenEvil You said it, brother.

    @Imgunnabeathis Hope your move went well, man!

    Week 3 of 13

    Cue Extinction extinction

    Week 3 saw me scale back my cue extinction therapy. I had a really close call, but I survived. Risky as cue extinction is, I feel I've benefited from this experiment. In the last 3 weeks, I've successfully walked away from porn more than I have in the last 2.3 years combined. I no longer feel that catching a glimpse of porn dooms me to relapse within the week (which I fully believed not long ago). In an age where triggering material seems part and parcel of the web, this is a big step.

    Cue extinction will likely have a place in the weeks to come, but not as a daily ritual.

    Something just dawned on me. The difference in my "near-death" experiences and my "normal" experiences with cue exposure can be summed up thusly:

    If I try to use the cue exposure session as an excuse to FIND a certain image/clip/whatever, I'm (almost) screwed.

    If I use the cue exposure session for the sole purpose of momentarily igniting those sensitized brain pathways AND THEN WALKING AWAY, I'm fine. Better than fine. It works, and I get stronger.

    In the first case, I'm already triggered before I even open the computer. In the latter case, I use the computer to trigger myself.

    Saying Goodbye

    I said I would be leaving on September 20th, but it turns out I'll be leaving tomorrow, the 23rd. Why the delay? Because as soon as the people around me got wind of my imminent departure, everyone wanted to hang out. The last few nights have been the most socially smooth of my entire life. I wish I could take credit for making out with a co-worker I've crushed on for years and waking up with another in my bed, but I think it's just some ineffable magic of alcohol-laden goodbyes. I should leave more often.

    Until next week, Fapstronauts!
  3. my.last.attempt

    my.last.attempt Dream the impossible dream!

    That's awesome, I think I've been using the alcohol-laden goodbyes in the wrong way, I hope everything goes well in your new place !
  4. Scaling back on cue exposure seems to be the most logical progression to the whole activity per se. Good job dude.

    Hope you have a fun road trip (?) man. Sounds great, like a Hollywood movie in fact!
  5. TheNewBorn

    TheNewBorn Guest

    Yo Apeman, that's really great to read. It makes me want to do better myself! Thanks for sharing, in particular the cue extinction seems like a great idea, i might steal it ;)

    Anyway, have a nice travel, mate, let it bring you where, as good old Kirk would say, 'no fapstronaut has gone before.'
  6. baywalker

    baywalker Active Member

    Hahah. But no you shouldn't. That's something I've done a lot in my life, so I can tell you from experience:

    What happens there is you become who you actually are when you are about to leave (not caring about what people think, or not worrying about what could go wrong). And you get positive results just when you are about to leave. That also adds to the people around you knowing that you will be leaving too, but I think that's because you never gave them the opportunity to be completely carefree with you.

    Wouldn't you think?

    Think back to those times, and try to remember some negative things that happened too. Now when you remember them, do you really care about those negative things? Of course not. Because you just didn't care because you were leaving.

    Live like this everyday, and you have a life worth living!
  7. Freedom from Servitude

    Freedom from Servitude Active Member

    Hi Apeman, I am glad to read that cue extinction therapy is working for you. It is quite a radical strategy that I have not seen used before. I personally would feel uncomfortable with it as I would be tempted to look at porn. Nevertheless, you are doing very well, keep up the good work.
  8. Original Jeff

    Original Jeff Don't settle for a quick-fix; unravel the layers.

    Mr Ape I hope everything's going well in LA. I've also tried cue extinction in the past, before I knew it was called cue extinction. I just realised by myself that if I triggered myself by my computer and closed it and did something else, it gave me this great feeling of control over my life. I didn't do it often but when I did it felt awesome. I might reintroduce it occasionally as at the moment I tend to encounter the danger zone if triggering things appear without my searching for them.
  9. FapTrap

    FapTrap Guest

    I just want to say Apeman that you're story is very inspiring, we're around the same age so I'm hoping, no I'm DETERMINED to achieve what you have.

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